Tuesday, December 1, 2009 | 11:58 PM |
Day 3
ahh.. i kinda regretted going to the movies with Prabz.
i noe he is my fren for 4 years nw.
he reads me like a book like Boyy.
but his feelings for me didnt go down.
unlike Boyy, Prabz has seen me growing up.
from childish and bubbly to matured and still childish and bubbly gal.
he has seen me down, seen me wen im happy,
seen me getting used electrical engineering.
he isnt there..
we dun meet up.
we chat in msn.
once in a while call n tok,
and we can talk everyone under the sun
while i got attached and lost the interest of him being my bf,
he still hasnt done tat.
we went on for 3mths wen i was 17,
break off cos of religion matters.
jus recently,
he confessed that, he still loves me.
as im the perfect gal for him.
i made this strong n clear, that i'll nv convert for him.
Allah is who I LOVE the most.
and he noes tat.
sometimes, he tries talking dirty, but i'll jus change the subject.
but............................
we met at jurong at 10.30am, and the movie's at 11am.
we manage to seat in the cinema at 11.20am. jus missed 2/3 mins of the show.
the movie was great. jus bits of touching scenes.
soon the theatre became cold.
he started hugging me. i was like oiii
he realise i was like pushing him away.
and he didnt touch me at all.
he had tt intention of doing some dirty stuffs.
argh.
promised myself:
- NOT TO GO OUT WITH HIM
- NOT TO TALK TO HIM SO MUCH.
such an ass!
arggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
oh.. i got reminded of my Boyy :(
actually, wen we go to threatres, once we sit down, he'll put his head on my shoulders.
den somehow, he'll try to find my lips in the dark.
sometimes end up kissing my nose.
and we'll giggle very loudly.. haha..
haiz.
i got reminded of him.
:(
i cried.
:(
immediately, aft the movie, i called Boyy.
he cancelled my calls 4 times.
i lost my appetite in eating :(
but Prabz forced me to eat.
we ate ayam penyet.
super nice.
i rmb going with Boyy once and Zakima once.
i miss this both.
den i give boyy a call again..
he picked up!
i cried aft hearing his voice.
told him i watched movie and got reminded of him
he told me not to worry and he'll be back.
i said, i really missed him alot. and he said he does too.
i laughed in between my tears and said, u dun sound like that.
he said, he really does, jus that he cant show his feelings, cos there are ppl around him.
told me to call tonite.
den i rushed off to school.
reached at 3.35pm. lecture still haven start. haha.
and the lecture ended at 4.35pm!
i love this lecturer for ending class early. and the lessons are interesting too. :)
wen home. no one was there.
mom, 3 bros, SIL, rahima, were at the beach without me.
see la, all got holiday, i still hv to go classes. :(
arnd 7.15pm, i left for my new tuition at boon lay.
K2 boy.
he is super hyper active.
he cant seem to concentrate
finally, he did some work.
b4 i left, he gave me packeted ice milo and blueberry cake.
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeet
met abdul bro at JP.
he accompanied me to YT but got down at BB.
he had a call from his gf, and he ended up toking to her till BB.
but sweet of him to dress up and made himself presentable, jus to sent me home.
haha.
gundu.
bump into dad at YT. aiyo.
lucky bro not there.
we went NTUC, got crackers, coke, nuts and alot of stuffs.
i asked him, " party ah?"
he said, " no la.. just buy onli."
lol.
headed home together.
he asked, if im saving money or not. 2/3 yrs got wedding. i jus said, ya i've saved 6k
but i dun.
he was worried for me.
usual daddy sentiments.
showered, watched Boys VS Girls.
and called boyy at 11.58pm.
he said, hes really bored. and he got no mood.
he was really toking as if he's in singapore.
the usual pissed voice.
he said, its as if im with him nw.
haiz.
he said, ever since he came here, he got no mood. i asked whyyy.. ur wedding in 8 days time u noe.
he said, dun ask me why. i jus came here for my mom's sake. getting married for mom's sake.
:(
i pity him.
he said, he cooked nasi goreng ikan bilis for everyone. haha..
his mom loves singapore's indian mee goreng.
he asked, wad time im slping nwadays. and hws wrk n sch going..
he asked me to eat on time.
and enjoy my singlehood till he comes back.
aiyo.
My heart is aching
I cannot deny.
I'll never be able
to tell you good-bye.
I know it's so silly.
Why do I feel so sad?
Why does the thought of you leaving
make me feel so bad?
I will miss your arms
that hold me so tight.
I will miss your kisses,
miss holding you at night.
I will miss your laugh
and the way that you smile.
Even though you are leaving
for a very short while.
You've become a part of my life
like the sun and the moon.
I depend on you honey.
Please come back to me soon!
Take with you my heart.
Take our memories too
of the times that we've shared
and know I love you.
♥ TrappedButterfly
