Guess wad? Im gonna blog.
Dun feel dreadful. I promise not to mk it lengthy..
Last stopped at 16th.. his bday.. aft tt day, duno wad happen.. haha.. too many to say..
1st of all.. I wish to say..
“ Happy 1 Year Anniversary to perfectbutimperfect.blogspot.com “
This bloggie of mine, turned 1 on 22th Feb =)
(seen anyone wishing like I did? Am I strange? No, its jus me.. im different. =)
Over the few days, wen t0 sembawang beach, east c0ast park, sent0sa, pasir ris. Basically I was 0ut in the sun. bet u dun wanna see me n0w… call me Ms Sun-Burn.. I l00k like a ch0c0late. 0mg.
And 0s0 0n this day, it was my DEC ppr. Ai Li came late.. and we b0th rushed t0 the examinati0n hall.. I was s0 scared tt they w0nt let us in.. but t0gether with us, 2 0f 0ur classmates were late t00.. phew!
It was a m0rning ppr. S0 aft the ppr, wen viv0 city with my baby.. 21st feb was 0ur 1 yr 5 mths… we wanted t0 hang 0ut at viv0 but, was t00 b0red. S0 t00k the m0n0rail and wen 0ff t0 Palawan Beach in Sent0sa… spent 8 hrs there.. jus me n him.. at the beach. =)
Bullying and teasing each 0ther.. splashing water at each 0ther. Haha. was fun. G0t wet. Damn. N0 extra cl0thes. Aft enj0ying, we sat d0wn at 0ne l0nely c0rner, infr0nt of the sea, and t0ked abt us. The current & the past. I saw my baby crying f0r the 2nd time in 1yr 5 mths. See him cry, I 0s0 cry… s0meh0w he changed the t0pic and we started laughing again. By den, 0ur cl0thes were dry.
F0r exact 20 mins, I placed my head 0n his sh0ulders and his head was leaning against my head, and we held each 0thers hand and SPOKE N0THING AT ALL. Jus l00ked at the sea and wads bey0nd the sea.. it was a very nice feeling.. b0th heart beating as 0ne.. l00king at the same directi0n..
Den at the 21th min, this d0nkey fella, suddenly started singing in his v0ice. Basket.. I was like kejut, I g0t sh0cked. Den he sang few s0ngs abt me n him. haha. and I was remixing the s0ng by adding s0me s0unds. Haha. den we wen t0 get a drink.. den cia0 h0me..
This day was the “Best in the w0rld!”
den 0n the 24th feb, me baby and zaki ma wen AMK. To his fren’s f00dstall. Had free briyani.. haha.. his fren was g00d l00king and damn tall. i l00ked damn small sia.. den aft tt…. Ahh.. we t00k bus.. t0 interchange.. den.. dun0 edi.. hahaha.. 4g0t sia.. wth..
25th Feb
1st day as a relief teacher in my bro’s PAP. Waaaaah.. the kids, so damn cute & inn0cent sia.. aft tt met baby.. wen 0ut with zaki ma..
26th feb
2nd day.. fun @ PAP. Den stayed at h0me.. cleaned the wh0le hse. Zaki ma came my hse.. we at lunch t0gether. Watched m0vie in SunTV den she helped me marinate the chicken and I fried the chickies. Den fetched my br0 frm sch00l.. aft he ate, wen d0wn, sent zaki ma 0ff. den headed t0 playgrnd. Played n played with br0.. aiy00 s0 cute la he.. den wen back.. rested.. watched tv den slpt.
T0day…..
Smth diff in school. 3 kids cried. One got hurt. All were so damn hyper. Duno why. Somehow manage to get dem under my control! Weeell doneeeeee Nazzzzzz!
Den met zaki aft school. Headed off to bugis. She bought watch den met him. walked aimlessly arnd. Den finally decided to go esplanade. Den sat there.. toked, laughed. Den wen back h0me. he g0t bullied by us. Haha. poor boi.
Den me n zaki ma wen till yew tee. Den I followed her to her bro’s childcare den to her blk den to her bro’s primary school. Toked. She was telling me abt her anger and probs with her childhood fren..
I tot childhood frens wld be close n understanding.. like me and Waahid. Chey..
Aft fetching the lil boi, wen h0me by bus. T0ked t0 him all the way.. he s0unded kinda d0wn and has headache..
Everytime aft a enj0yable n fun 0uting, either with the 2 0f us, 0r with zaki ma with us 0r any0ne, he’d g0 h0me and feel damn sad.
His thinking: I enj0y s0 much with u and the rest. Hv s0 much fun with u t0gether with the rest. Den 0ne day, I’ve t0 g0 back India t0 get married. And have tt stupid Indian mentality.. I feel s0 damn sad la.. im like half Singaporean.. grew up here n have many cl0se frens here.. den t0 think abt me having t0 g0 back t0 India n0 matter wad happens, hurts me.. I hv t0 ch00se India instead 0f Singapore due t0 my family. 0f c0s, I’ll c0me back t0 sg and wrk here.. but, I’d hv a Indian national wife with me. wh0 wld be an alien here. Wld my frens be my frens still? Wld my sweetheart be there f0r me like hw she is n0w? very c0nfused. I dun wish t0 get married. I wish im dead.
Haiz.. if he keeps thinking like this, wh0s g0nna get hurt? ME & HIM..
My future n0w is a big fat questi0n mark. Haiz..
I jus wan him to be happy. Even if I g0tta give up my l0ve….
