Monday, January 14, 2008 | 10:24 PM | 0 Comments

" got laptop pahale se shuddha? update la kutiyA " said Anees...


meaning, got laptop already right? update la bitch


she violent sia.. shes getting married next month.. how sad.. all the best da.. enjoy ur married life.. may god bless u always.. i cant come as i've my exams at tt period.. Vicknesh and Priya too.. dun worry, Anand will be there.. hes namme veettu pilla.. hehehe.. he'll be flying over jus for u k?

i'll see u aft 2 weeks.. =) i talking as if u going off tmr..


rape frm Naz 1st.. den go get married..


One VIP was suppose to come on Saturday.. postponed to Monday. told almost everyone tt finally my baby is coming back.. but 4got to tell dem, tt he postponed again. AIYO..

M0nday came.. Ai Li asked me while we were on the way to school.. "how, he come already? going out aft school to meet him?"

i was thinking in my mind, " how i wish tt cld happen today"

den i told her.. she said, "tell him no need to come, come next year.. i'll go find another bf." lolx.

she one gundu la.. last thursday, we were drawing sine waves.. den suddenly she said it looked like saggy boobs.. den since den, she relates all circular things/objects/drawing as boobs.. wallao.. do i noe her?

unfortunately yes..

donkey called me yday, was saying sorry tt he was damn busy tt he didnt call me.. den he said he was going back to Chennai to get the license done and hopefully it'll be done by this friday.. den he said he missed me.. n he loves me really alot.. he was thanking me for my patience and understanding and etc..

*grins at prabz* i was complaining to this fella tt my donkey didnt call n all.. i was showing my anger on prabz. not on donkey.. and in the end, donkey was saying i was so understanding.. wahahahaha.. got praised for nth.. actually to think of it, i was indeed patient and understanding. if not i'd hv left him mths ago..


*smiles to myself*

PCIT lab was okok.. practice for practical test n having a fren like Ai Li, u wont realise tt time really zooooooms pass fast. aft tt, wen for DEC tutorial. sat inbetween AL's "best fren", Shimei and AL. Shimei is a... no words to describe her la.. either she really dun understand wad is being taught or she acting blur.. u tell her 4,5,6,7,8,9 or 10000000000 times, her answer will be, "huh.. i really duno le" -.-

many got pissed with her, including the lecturers.. wad to do la.. for one practical, i sit directly behind her. and she'll be turning behind n asking hw ah hw ah.. den i've to go to her desk n do the stuffs for her.. i dun get angry with her.. i'll teach her n tell her hw to do.. few times.. im a tuition teacher, i've learnt hw to be patient with weak students.. and while teaching, i can test my own understanding u c.. n if i am able to troubleshoot her problems, den wen i, myself hv a prob, i noe hw to get it done.. but the prob is, no matter hw much i teach her n do for her, she'll still ask me hw ah.. wah piang eh.. pekchek

i wont show her my anger ah.. either, AL will walk pass me, and i'll jus pass her to AL or i'll say, duno le.. ask teacher, den go back n do my lab.

i suddenly rmb, she once said, " Naz, u very patient hor " i jus smiled.


hahahahahaha.. maybe im the onli one who doesnt scold her or show my irritated face!

onli AL noes hw much i complain abt her. hehehehe!


i had my previous class as a gang of frens.. everywhere oso go together. a gang of 12, became one since semester 2.. tt means, all tt 12 frens changed class.. infact, im the one who changed class. i took a diff module.. and AL took the same as mine.. so, now this sem, AL's with me.. replacing tt 12 peeps.. =)

aft school, Arun wanted to meet him.. to pass me my donkey's stuffs.. which im suppose to send it to donkey via email..

den wen home.. got down at stagmont ring and walked all the way home.. if i walk fast, its 10 mins, slow means, 10-20 mins.. i'll be in my own world while walking.. the thing is, its one way.. frm school, i can go home this way.. but frm home, i cant go school this way.. the route is different.. if can go sch this way means, i'd be saving alot of money for my ezlink card sia..

den watched "Kanna Moochi Yennada" acted by Pritivi Raj and Satya Raj and many more.. i've watched all Pritivi's tamil movies.. and im really attracted by his charming face n friendliness and smile n cute cute reactions.. hehehe... and i told my donkey yday, "big bro, find for me a bf like Pritivi" and he said, "younger sis, no prob.. why am i a big bro for u, i'll find u one k? den i'll go find another gf " stupid fella.. tease me like no body's biz. getting my punishment for being notti previously..

Prabz was doing all these, bullying me n stuffs.. now he resigned and my donkey is taking over. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah... @$#$%^%@!@%^#$#%#$#


nevertheless, i still love him like yday.. =)

tmr's tuesday... got tuition at 6pm..
wednesday.. getting $300...

school approved, DBS tuition loan.. so every sem, i gotta pay $117. as the loan is onli 75%. need to pay by thursday. argh..

haiz.. $300-$117 = $183
need to top up ezlink card n top up card. $20
$183-$20= $163.

lil bro's bday next monday, 21st jan. got party on sunday. he asked for a bicycle. gundu fella. gotta buy one within $70.

$163-$70 = $93.

gotta keep $93 for a week. guess its more den enuff. i dun eat in sch.. shld be ok.. den i'll be getting my $180 on 26th jan..

$180 + $93 = $273.. den i'll be getting another $200 frm another tuition.. end of the mth but duno wen.. so tt will be 473..

will be having $473 by end of the month!! hopefully i'd hv enuff money for myself wen Prince come back. cos i'll tend to spend for him.. but den, he wont come sg empty ended. if not cannot survive.. confirm he must hv cash with him. for the time being, cant ask him money.. lets see hw it goes..

im yet to buy my sec 2 kid assessment books. i tot can buy with the $300. den suddenly school give dateline to pay school fees..

i've to pay for my school fees from now on.. i cant depend on daddy... he himself no money.. his operation and mine cost most of his cpf n medisave.. bro's NUS tuition fees is damn high sia.. bro applied for loan too.. duno hw he can manage sia.. hes like earning arnd 3k frm his tuition. den he has to pay for his car.. road tax n all.. he can manage.. but i cant..

hes used to saving la.. im not.. if got money, will quickly spend. u wont be able to find a 5 cent frm me.. but now i noe hw impt it is.. n its like a big blow.. even if i've money, i cant spend, i need to pay fees n etc. lucky sia i dun hv line. im using top up.. line means, i'll use anyhw, cos duno the limit. den must pay for tt bill all.. top up means, i'll noe tt if credit is below $1 means, cant send sms n incoming suspended...

now tt i told dad not to worry abt my fees and i'll be able to pay with my tuition money, i got this thing in heart tt, since im paying with the money im suppose to enjoy n spend n be happy with, i must study hard. if i fail, all tt money i worked for goes to waste...

everytime im lazy, the loan i took up comes to mind. is it a gd thing? i didnt expect fate to change this way sia... tt i'd be paying my own fees..

my Prince told me not to worry.. since i've to pay arnd $200 pay semester. and theres 2 more sems to go. he said, he'd get a job by then and he'll get me a line under his name.. *weeee!*
so, the fone bill will go to his hse, and i'll pay him wadever i used for, n he pays for wadever he used for.. its like a husband wife thingy.. haha.. he promised me tt he'll do tt.. and i've to pay the loan i took aft my 3rd year.. $100 per mth.. so if hopefully, i got into NIE, i'd get arnd 2k per mth. $100 wont be an issue. and he said, if he gets into music industry, he'll earn alot. he said, he'd pay mthly for me.. and told me not to reject his offer. he said, "compared to wad u did for me, this is nth" nice of him la.. but i really dun like getting money frm ppl.. unless i got no choice..

i jus hv to wait n see.. God have mercy on me.. Lessen my burden, please...

im so used to having money with me all the time tt, we if not hv even a dollar with me, i start to get scared..


i envied those ppl who are poor, yet they study so well.. and i was okok rich and i get like border line grades b4.. now, im like poor, and i gotta prove to my parents tt i still can do well. according to parents i got nth to worry.. i shall keep it tt way.. cos if they noe im sad n no money n etc, mom will be damn worried.. she'll start giving sudden extra care. dad will be pitying me n blaming himself. dowan all these la.. jus wan family to be happy.. happiness is priceless.. i dowan to be the one standing out.. like black sheep jus cos i cant support myself..


i always get down thinking abt this.. im damn happy tt i passed all my common tests.. but still gotta study harder.. i wanna get into NIE.. i gotta hv gd grades..


i dowan to think in the end tt all i wish for, its all wishes.. never been reality..

dun pity me, i dun need ur sympathy.. gimme ur moral support.. i dun show sadness or anger tt much, so make me happy wenever u can... is wad im asking for hurts u?





♥ TrappedButterfly