Tuesday, November 6, 2007 | 10:12 PM | 0 Comments
I try to be nice, but you just misunderst00d me.
I'm not fitting in anymore, what can I do?
You don't realize, but it's starting to hurt.
When everything's just right, it always turns to dirt.
Help me, what am I doing wrong?
I don't understand, I'm there when your not strong.
I try to be happy most of the time, but it's getting harder now,
knowing your friendship isn't mine
P0int 0ut t0 me,
When was the time i wasnt there f0r u?
When every piece 0f shit in sch00l, tried t0 bully u, teased u, st0le ur frens away,
Wh0 was the last 0ne wh0 remained?
ME.
I st00d up f0r u. Be it f0r gd 0r bad.
U did that t00.
We were super cl0se f0r 5 years.
We shared the same dream.
Remember u asking me, " in 10 years time, wld we be still meeting up f0r a cup 0f c0ffee? "
I said 'yes' s0 c0nfidently and u hugged me.
For the 1st time.
You t0ld me, even if u lose ur bf, u didnt want to lose me.
Wad happen n0w?
in th0se 5 years, we b0th had pr0bs.
Family and Relati0nships.
We c0nfided in each 0ther.
We pull each 0ther up if we realise that 0ne 0f us is dr0pping.
Be Studies t0 anything.
I had u. U had me.
After Os, we went 0n 0ur 0wn ways.
The dream 0f g0ing Ngee Ann with the same dipl0ma, has be shattered.
I made t0 NP. But u didnt.
u studied privately f0r 'Hotel Management'
We were c0ntacting each 0ther f0r 0nli 3 mths aft Os.
Den wh0 l0st t0uch.
that was wen, i realised hw much u meant t0 me.
i l0st my best fren.
i c0ntacted u thru Friendster and u take days t0 reply me.
but still, i'd be waiting patiently f0r ur reply.
th0ugh we're n0t t0king t0 each 0ther,
th0ugh its supp0se t0 be 'Lost In Touch',
We kn0w what each 0ther are d0ing in life.
Wen im still d0ing my Dip, u're d0ing ur deg in Hotel Management.
U n0e hw happy i am?
u're w0rking t0wards ur g0al, ur future..
thats wad u wan.
at least u're d0ing wad u like. n0t like me.
im stuck with wires and currents and v0ltages.
but still, u n0e very well tt i wanna be a teacher.
s0, aft dip, im g0ing str. t0 NIE.
no pr0b in tt.
ur bday came, i send u a wish in friendster as i cldnt c0ntact u.
but wadever well wishes i said, u TOTALLY misunderst00d it.
wad u wan me t0 d0 den?
i didnt wan t0 fight with u.
s0 i said s0rry.
and i said, leave it, my fault. and i was changing the subject.
YET, u insist tt its ur fault and asked the meaning 0f wadever i typed t0 u.
Im helpless.
why wld i wanna see u hurt?
why wld i wanna betray u?
why wld i wanna say bad stuffs to u?
u n0e very well, im very str. f0rward. if i dun like, i'll say it t0 ur face.
what hurts me m0st is, aft being with me f0r 5 yrs, standing up f0r u. being there and being m0re den a fren, u still can misunderstand me.
im n0t telling u wadever gd deeds i did f0r u/to u. u make me say.
tt d0esnt mean tt u didnt d0 anyting f0r me.
haiz..
i dun0 wad t0 say la
i n0e u're reading this.
Sc0ld me if u wan.
Curse me if its necessary.
i dun wish t0 pr0ve my p0int tt im right.
i dun wish t0 any0ne.
i'll say this n0w n 4ever :
Sundari, u're a fren, every0ne wants and needs.
n0t easy t0 4get this friendship. c0s WE went thru al0t T0GETHER.
Happiness,
sadness,
anger,
bullys,
teasings,
punishment,
Starved t0gether,
and the list g0es 0n..
wish u all the best.
may g0d bless u & prosper u.
I'm not fitting in anymore, what can I do?
You don't realize, but it's starting to hurt.
When everything's just right, it always turns to dirt.
Help me, what am I doing wrong?
I don't understand, I'm there when your not strong.
I try to be happy most of the time, but it's getting harder now,
knowing your friendship isn't mine
P0int 0ut t0 me,
When was the time i wasnt there f0r u?
When every piece 0f shit in sch00l, tried t0 bully u, teased u, st0le ur frens away,
Wh0 was the last 0ne wh0 remained?
ME.
I st00d up f0r u. Be it f0r gd 0r bad.
U did that t00.
We were super cl0se f0r 5 years.
We shared the same dream.
Remember u asking me, " in 10 years time, wld we be still meeting up f0r a cup 0f c0ffee? "
I said 'yes' s0 c0nfidently and u hugged me.
For the 1st time.
You t0ld me, even if u lose ur bf, u didnt want to lose me.
Wad happen n0w?
in th0se 5 years, we b0th had pr0bs.
Family and Relati0nships.
We c0nfided in each 0ther.
We pull each 0ther up if we realise that 0ne 0f us is dr0pping.
Be Studies t0 anything.
I had u. U had me.
After Os, we went 0n 0ur 0wn ways.
The dream 0f g0ing Ngee Ann with the same dipl0ma, has be shattered.
I made t0 NP. But u didnt.
u studied privately f0r 'Hotel Management'
We were c0ntacting each 0ther f0r 0nli 3 mths aft Os.
Den wh0 l0st t0uch.
that was wen, i realised hw much u meant t0 me.
i l0st my best fren.
i c0ntacted u thru Friendster and u take days t0 reply me.
but still, i'd be waiting patiently f0r ur reply.
th0ugh we're n0t t0king t0 each 0ther,
th0ugh its supp0se t0 be 'Lost In Touch',
We kn0w what each 0ther are d0ing in life.
Wen im still d0ing my Dip, u're d0ing ur deg in Hotel Management.
U n0e hw happy i am?
u're w0rking t0wards ur g0al, ur future..
thats wad u wan.
at least u're d0ing wad u like. n0t like me.
im stuck with wires and currents and v0ltages.
but still, u n0e very well tt i wanna be a teacher.
s0, aft dip, im g0ing str. t0 NIE.
no pr0b in tt.
ur bday came, i send u a wish in friendster as i cldnt c0ntact u.
but wadever well wishes i said, u TOTALLY misunderst00d it.
wad u wan me t0 d0 den?
i didnt wan t0 fight with u.
s0 i said s0rry.
and i said, leave it, my fault. and i was changing the subject.
YET, u insist tt its ur fault and asked the meaning 0f wadever i typed t0 u.
Im helpless.
why wld i wanna see u hurt?
why wld i wanna betray u?
why wld i wanna say bad stuffs to u?
u n0e very well, im very str. f0rward. if i dun like, i'll say it t0 ur face.
what hurts me m0st is, aft being with me f0r 5 yrs, standing up f0r u. being there and being m0re den a fren, u still can misunderstand me.
im n0t telling u wadever gd deeds i did f0r u/to u. u make me say.
tt d0esnt mean tt u didnt d0 anyting f0r me.
haiz..
i dun0 wad t0 say la
i n0e u're reading this.
Sc0ld me if u wan.
Curse me if its necessary.
i dun wish t0 pr0ve my p0int tt im right.
i dun wish t0 any0ne.
i'll say this n0w n 4ever :
Sundari, u're a fren, every0ne wants and needs.
n0t easy t0 4get this friendship. c0s WE went thru al0t T0GETHER.
Happiness,
sadness,
anger,
bullys,
teasings,
punishment,
Starved t0gether,
and the list g0es 0n..
wish u all the best.
may g0d bless u & prosper u.
*leaving with a tear in my eyes*
♥ TrappedButterfly
A L0ng Distance Relati0nship..
| 10:08 PM | 0 Comments
A L0ng Distance Relati0nship..
When it hurts so bad,
why does it feel so good?
I wish this all made sense,
I wish I understood.
Not having you here with me is tearing me up inside,
but I can't stop thinking about you no matter how hard I try.
You know how I feel about you,
and I know I want to spend the rest of my life with you,
but it's so hard to do when I can't even be next to you.
Why does it gotta be so complicated?
Loving you feels so right,
but at the same time,
knowing I can't have you keeps me awake at night.
I just want this to be simple,
I just want you here with me,
to look into your eyes,
be held in your arms...then I'd truly be happy.
Right now this distance between us is out of our control,
but I'm still hoping one day soon,
I'll get what I'm wishing for.
♥ TrappedButterfly
