Monday, June 25, 2007 | 2:47 PM | 0 Comments
if u happen t0 see my p0st 0n 25th April.. i've written there as t0 be c0ntinued.
the pr0b is, i 0redi g0t s0me 0f it. s0 im g0nna change my bday list =P
i d0wan t0 ask f0r al0t.. its the th0ugh tt c0unts. these are s0me that i wish i can get it.. =)
- ch0c0lates
- s0ft t0ys
- new cl0thes
- a nice dinner with a gr0up or wit 0ne.. anyting..
- big big cake
- $$$$$$$
- r0ses!
- a g00d chat 0r conversati0n wit prabz
( see my fate , haf t0 put tis in my wish list )
i hate it wen ppl i noe change into smth tt makes our bond weak. argh..
♥ TrappedButterfly
| 1:29 PM | 0 Comments
its the 25th! im supp0sed t0 be at sch00l. 1st day 0f term 2. but im at h0me, at breakfast, m0pped the hse, ate lunch, n0w bl0gging. later MUST watch TV (hehe!) den g0 tuiti0n at 6.30pm.
tuiti0n is fr0m 7.30pm t0 9.30pm. den take 188 t0 cck interchange den take 302 t0 hse bus st0p. den g0 h0me pack my stuff. eat dinner, watch abit 0f TV. den slp.. tmr g0 sch00l..
why am i telling u tis? argh..
im having all kinda feelings.. weird. nv felt s0 many at 0ne g0. aiy00!
** Sings : Yen Enakku Mayakkam, Yen Enakku Thayakkam, Yen Enakku Enna Aachu.. **
my bday celeb wen haywire.. dun0 wad happen.. dun wish t0 t0k abt it.. but early part 0f the day, i really enj0yed it.. thx t0 every0ne. its 4 m0re days f0r the actual day.. cant wait! s0t0ng gave me a hint 0f wads g0nna happen 0n tt day.. g0tta bring extra cl0thes f0r emergency.. & i realli cant wait t0 g0 0ut with vicky in the nite!! weeeee!!
Feeling : Excited & Happy
Prince t0ld me t0 call him 0n the 28th at 11.45pm. weeeeee!! He said he wanna wish me specially.. He's full 0f surprises. u imagine 0ne thing, he'll surprise u wit an0ther.. hehe!
Feeling: Anxi0us, Happy & Excited
While mopping my hse, ima msged me saying Prince called. i called him back, he jus reached Chennai. yday nite, i called him while he was on his way there frm his native, t0ld him abt my c0usin br0 wh0s acting like im his wife f0r the past 3 yrs. argh.. n t0ld him tt he behaved 0ne kind 0n saturday. Prince g0t angry n t0ld me tt 1 m0re time he d0 like tt, tell amma.. n he said, if he was there, he'd hv whacked my c0usin br0 up.
my c0usin br0 is, amma's elder br0's s0n. my macha. i can marry him.. but i d0wan!!! EEEEEE! anyway, Prince s0unded angry & disturbed. i knew smth was wr0ng but dun0 if its bc0s 0f wad i said 0r smth else.. s0 i didnt ask.. den wen ima msg me saying he called, i was like.. s0 early he called? he shld hv jus reached Chennai den.. i knew smth was wr0ng.. called him.. den 0nli he t0ld me.. he n his m0m fight f0r a pr0blem his br0ther caused. dun wish t0 say wads the pr0b here. den he said, i dun0 wad t0 d0 ma, feel s0 stressed, feel like giving up tts why i wanted t0 hear ur v0ice.. (awwwww hw sweeeeeeet!)
i helped him with many things, frm being there t0 sh0wing l0ve t0 giving m0ney. it makes me pr0ud t0 think that he became wh0 he is n0w cause 0f the m0tivati0n, the helpful w0rds, caring f0r him , & everything.
he used t0 be a flirt. if jus break 0ff, few weeks later, find an0ther gal. d0wan c0ncentrate. hang 0ut, g0 0ut 0nli, matured but d0wan t0 use his maturity in everyting, waste m0ney 0n nth, suffering al0t.. i knew wh0 he was b4 i went 0n with him.
& amazingly, aft i was bel0nged t0 him, he became a different man. s0me0ne wh0 d0esnt flirt, s0me0ne wh0 believes tt tis gal hes l0ving n0w will be his life partner, s0me0ne wh0 n0es wad he wants in life, s0me0ne wh0 realise studies are impt n regretting it n0w, s0me0ne wh0 n0es hw hard it is t0 find a j0b, s0me0ne wh0 understands his life & his darling's life, s0me0ne wh0 n0es that that is a gal wh0 will be depending 0n him in future, s0me0ne wh0 dun b0ther abt his appearence as he g0t the gal he l0ves dearly, s0me0ne wh0 is pi0us, s0me0ne wh0 dun b0ther giving a 2nd l00k at the gal wh0 walked passed him, s0me0ne wh0 0pens up t0 his gal, s0me0ne wh0 sh0ws 0thers anger 0n tt gal, s0me0ne wh0 wishes tt his gal wld be happy & d0esnt tell his w0rries t0 his gal.. the list g0es 0n.. he isnt the fella i n0e. thx t0 Nazirah. =)
i aint b0asting here. i jus feel pr0ud tt i can really change a n0t-ready-t0-face the w0rld pers0n t0 gimme-wadeva-u-want-and-i'll-pr0ve-it-tt-i-can-stand-0n-my-0wn-feet pers0n.
like wad i t0ld him, even if i dun get u in the end, ur wife can enj0y all these. she'll be the luckiest w0man if she gets u. i aint changing u s0 tt MY FAMILY will like u. im changing u s0 tt u can be 0n ur 0wn n0 matter where u're in tis w0rld. f0r ur 0wn g00d. n guess wad, his v0ice cracked like as if he cried. i hate men wh0 cries & begs. i'll immediately give in..
w0men are b0rn t0 depend 0n men. but there are s0me w0men wh0 can depend fully 0n demselves. tts a diff st0ry. but m0st 0f dem are depending 0n their men. wen u're unmarried & n0t wrking, u depend 0n ur m0m f0r ur all0wances. where d0 m0mmy get the m0ney fr0m? daddy will give m0mmy m0ney & tt m0ney will g0 t0 u. see the r00t, dad gives m0mmy $$$.. we're depending 0n men! get it.. but yes, there are times wen u cant depend 0n dem, n they'd be depending 0n u. tts an0ther case.
anyway, theres m0re t0 g0 abt tis, but.. i d0wan t0 hv the same m00d thr0ugh0ut the day.
Feeling : Anger, Sad, Happy, Proud & Worried
Met my c0usin sis, her hubby & their 4th baby in geylang last last week. wah tell u.. tt nephew 0f mine, is s0 cute. wen u make him sit 0n ur laps, he'll r0ck f0rward & backwards. s0 cuteeeeee! haha.. he'll call me 'chi chi' wen he sees me.. haha.. its actually 'chechi' meaning auntie. haha.. hes 0nli 7mths 0ld.. tts him bel0w!
that's my m0m in pink. her head missing.. we jus finished 0ur dinner wen we saw my c0usin, hubby n tis boi, Farhan. tts me tt he has his legs 0n.. me in purple (0nli my hand is visible ) hes sitting 0n the yellow table. L00ks at his curi0us eyes wen 2nd br0 t00k tis pic.. s000 ad0rable!
went with m0m, elder br0, 2nd br0, 3rd br0, machi (elder br0's gf) & me! 3 days after my discharge.. cann0t keep quiet.. wanted t0 g0 0ut.. tsk tsk..
g0t 9 smses fr0m classmates, all in the same class, all will t0k t0 each 0ther, yet all these 9 msged me the same msg, ' Naz, why nv c0me sch00l t0day. t0day g0t sch00l u n0e ' tis is the msg they shld sent but i received it in many different f0rms.. like, ' why nv come? ' & ' u n0t in sch00l arg? ' -.-
they l0ve me t00 much..
tts it f0r n0w.. tk cares! lubb all 0f ya..
" Whereva i am, in wadeva way... ur mem0ries are always with me. sh0uld i tell any0ne or sh0uld i n0t. its a matter 0f heart after all.. Its said that a w0rld m0ves al0ng with us. Even a s0litude gr0ws silently in the heart. all i hv is mem0ries. ur mem0ries are with me. s0mewhere in the heart an arr0w pierces thr0ugh the mem0ries. s0mewhere every picture dims a little. s0me find happiness in the shades 0f a new w0rld.. and all tt remains are 0nli mem0ries.. mem0ries 0f u.. "
" The m0re it means t0 u... the easier u'll l0se.. at the end, all its left is mem0ries "
♥ TrappedButterfly
