Wednesday, April 1, 2009 | 11:42 PM | 0 Comments

made a mistake.. gosh...

Raz's name i saved as NP Raz.. Boyy's Cousin sis i saved ask Raz Akka. her name oso sameee

den in middle of Raz sms.. This sis smsed saying, "tmr are u coming?" i was like, huh coming whr.. i tot it was Raz.

den i replied, huh? coming whr sia..

den i realise oh shit shit shit wrong person..

den i smsed her back saying sorry.. i tot different person.. got the same name.. sorry sorry.. dun mind.. ya i coming..

i panicked.

i called SOS! (Boyy)

he laughed.. and said, now got stalker edi la.. kk i'll call her n tell..


den within 1 min, Boyy called and i said she replied me edi.. and he asked wad she replied.. said ok wait, wen to msg n was reading aloud u noe.. den wen i finished, i heard the sis voice..

i was super damn paiseh hor.. aiyooooooooooooo

den everything settled..

i called boyy n said, U WANNA CONF, TELL ME 1ST.. and i was super pissed with him..

and i send another sms saying, i realli realli realli realli realli hate u...

no reply.. and i off my hp..

den no heart, within secs on again.. aiyoo...

den arnd 10 plus, called him 3 times, he picked up but cannot hear anything.. 4th time, he scolded me saying, I SAID I'LL CALL U BACK RITE.. BUSY LA..

i said, im gonna slp.. OK I'LL CALL U BACCCCCCCK..

hang up den 40mins ltr, he called saying he jus reached home from wrk.. and asked if i've slpt yet.. i said soon.. and chatted abit n hang up..

5mins ltr, i smsed him, " Ma.. Sleep well k? Love u?"

felt bad for venting my anger jus nw..

den he replied, " i tot u hate me, he come u love me now?"

haha..

i said, " hmm.. deep down inside my heart, i still love u.. onli said thru my mouth jus nw.. love me?

he replied, "hmm.. love u too, n gd nite, i lying on my bed edi, very tired"

and i replied, "hehe.. see u sound so cute wen u say tt.. sorry if i was like an idiot. u love an idiot. if i were perfect, u wldnt hv loved me.. ok gdnite.."

and he replied, " yes, i love an idiot.. so i become an idiot too.. come let the 2 idiots slp.. love u idiot of the idiot. nitez"

haha..

HES A GUNDU..


♥ TrappedButterfly



 
    | 10:32 PM | 0 Comments

omg omg omg..

Theres this guy called Razali.. (hope he doesnt read my blog, even if he does, MY BLOG, MY ASS, MY EVERYTHING is written)

we call him Raz. and im Naz. OMG.

so anyway, i was introed to him by Vivian and Mei Juan.. hes such a random malay guy.

but, every exam period, we all will sit together and study and mug and teach each other..

den soon, he became hi-bye fren.. he doesnt make a diff in my life..

during FYP, we're in different labs.. different projects. all we do is encourage is each other. tt one oso very seldom..

during Final presentation oso, shila n i, sat with him n his partner and many others. frens mah.. sit together la..

den we played cheat by voting each other with high points. haha..

and tts all..

school ended..

we dun sms unless impt from day 1 of knowing him.

den jus nw, arnd 8pm +, this pig, smsed me, "Naz, I love you"

i replied,

Naz: "eh budak, u ok tak.. stress eh? msg me mcm ni.."

Raz: aft awhile,: " why cannot ah?"

Naz: u dun mean it rite? not serious kan?

Raz: of cos i mean la..

Naz: Gila ke? as a fren rite? =)

Raz: **no reply**

i heck care.. as if it was true and im gonna reciprocate. haha..

den i went to watch Mr. Incredibles for the 36th time. so cute u noe..

den i realise, OMG ITS APRIL FOOL DAY..

and i linked back to Raz.. and i was wondering.. "hmm.. maybe ah.."

LOL..


haiz.. i sure miss school days.. and wen it comes to april fool.. haizzzzzz...

full everyone.. especially teachers..

in yr 2.. we printed out a " Class is cancelled" notice and paste on our door..


and we had, lecture, we had tutorial and practical.. all same modules on tt day.. great ah..

lecture was at 9am.. and as planned we put it on at 8.45am.. Shes always early and we hate her. haha.. naggy..

so we put on the door.. and we went to the next room n waited till she was gone..

and she actually believed that!!!!! and wen off.. we went back to our class and we waited and waited and waited for her to come back.. we purposely made so much of noise tt the teacher next door has to come.. guess who came.. MR LEE. our Administor and oso our senior lecturer.. nice fella..

and he called the teacher and she kinda scolding i guess. but she didnt ask us anything and carried on teaching. 15 mins to end, so nth to teach.. she was naggy again..

den aft lunch is tutorial.. same thing.. notice outside.. and she left. noise and she came back. haha..

she didnt suspect! OMG!

immediately next was practical.. same thing sia.. but we were inside the lab.. lights closed. and notice on the door.

she saw, left. i tink she suspected, cos she came back. open the doors.. and before she on the lights, one guy made a spooky sound.. she looked all over.. and on the light..

we as a class, stood together holding a cake..

she started nagging and asked why got notice and lights were off.. she walked towards us, and saw the cake..

"U're Fooled, Mrs Chan and Happy Birthday! From PB11!"

she started smiling.. and telling us hw she felt wen she got screwed.. hahahaha!

and she was nice aft tt.. serious. haa!

i miss those days... haizzzz



♥ TrappedButterfly



 
    | 7:39 PM | 0 Comments

NO! Nth is wrong with me.. i had this urge to write all that..

being poetic la.. gimme a chance..

and dun be jealous. wahaha!




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    | 7:37 PM | 0 Comments

Confessions!

Pain... Tension... Fatigue...
Depression...
Anger, Aggression, Frustration.
All these unwanted sensations -
Burning, hurting, tearing.
My heart alone, cold and fearing.
Why won't you let me sleep, let me rest,
Let me forget
To eradicate, eliminate, destroy all my regrets?
These memories inside, swirling, twirling,
unwilling to reside in the corner of my mind.
Repeating, resisting, insisting -
Refusing to be denied its recognition
Of its position in my
Frustration, Confusion, Delusion.
Ah, to close my eyes and let time fly by,
Because there's so much to gain
By forgetting these dreams driving me insane.
Unfocused, unclear, out of control,
My world spinning, spinning, spinning,
My sanity flying through the door.
My reason, my logic, oh, it's tragic,
Like fine sands running through my hands,
I'm losing my mind.


♥ TrappedButterfly



 
    | 7:35 PM | 0 Comments

To Zakiyah...

They had been together for almost a year,
now all she can feel is fear.
She gave all that she could give, it just wasn't the way he wanted to live.

He left without a backward glance, not even giving their love a chance.
She often wonders what she could have done,
To keep him from going on the run.

Now she is living all alone,
With nothing she can call her own.
She can barely make herself eat,
Wondering if her life will again be complete.

This woman is now moving along,
Building her courage, and becoming strong. Time will heal her broken pride,
Toward the sunrise her heart will glide.



♥ TrappedButterfly



 
    | 7:29 PM | 0 Comments

Trapped inside my own head, with nothing but my own fevered dreams to comfort me.
I know the pain of the madman; He lives inside of me.
I've felt the strength of demons and the weakness of self- preservation.
And hope. Hope.

Hey, parents, do you know where your kids are tonight?
Are they locked away inside of themselves?
Are their minds slipping away?

Mama hen, mama hen . . .
The fox has taken your baby again.

Precious minds are a shame to waste, memories are forgotten in haste.
I am losing all that is me . . .

Yet gaining something entirely different. Something that acts like an animal

And speaks like God.
Comforts me like a best friend
And loves me like its child.
I am its child.
An innocent brat, ready for its teachings.
Ready to do what is told to me.
Believing all that is said to me.
Taking in all.

And living off of my fevered dreams.


♥ TrappedButterfly



 Letting Go...
    | 7:27 PM | 0 Comments

How do you walk away from someone you love and take the road of friend..
Can you reroute the course you have taken and start over once again?

I don't really want to let you go but inside me I know I must..
The times we've loved . . . the times you've left
My heart says stay . . . but it's my mind I must trust.

We have shared so much together : Laughter . . . fun times . . . tears;
Yet sometimes we can't turn back time, we must walk away, and allow ourselves to heal.

I know one day you will be happy and your soulmate you have..
I know we each have one out there, even if for now . . . only in our minds.

May life be gentle with you
May God's best come your way;
And on some quiet tomorrow
You will realize things were better this way.


♥ TrappedButterfly