wen for Marsling tuition, my ex colleague’s daughter. Primary 1. She was gd tt day. Bring sent me. and fetched me. den we headed to another hse, to tk one of the seeru frm the auntie. Den bro sent me to YT MRT. I took train to Little India. Met up with 2 brothers, mom and rahima. Den wen to eat. Den collected our saree blouses, we sent to the tailor. Den mom n brother wen to collect elder bro’s pants in another place.
Rahima and I and my little bro were buying bangles. Den we were walking and met Rabitha Machi, her elder bro, wife and their little gal. we bullied Rabitha Machi.. she was wearing lenses and make up. jus not like her. Den we bully her saying she got the wedding spirit all.. hahaha.. she looked abit diff. haha.. den she got paiseh abit.. lolx. Rahima n I are pro in tt. Lol. Den elder bro came. Den we wen into the car, telling everyone tt we saw dem and hw we bullied her. Lolx.
For Rabitha Machi, it’ll be fun la.. its part & parcel of this wedding thingy. Bully the bride. If she doesn’t get bullied/teased or wad ah, it’ll be damn boring la. Lucky she got me n rahima. Haha.
den we went geylang. Mom wen to buy food while I and rahima wen into the shopping centre. I was again complaining to him abt wad happen which I didn’t like… den he was asking me to tk it easy, I cant do anyting, I’ve to bear wif it n blah blah.
Den while they were buying flowers to decorate on the car, Rahima n I bought some things frm the same shop.. haha.. we were damn secretive abt wad we gonna give.. and we’re damn excited siaaaaaa! Haha! den came home.. hungry. Ate. Den watched tv all the way.. its Saturday, got movie wad! Haha!
Den Prince called. B4 slp. Toked abit. I asked why he cares abt me so much. He said, cos he loves every bit of me. my smile, anger, cuteness, stubbornness, mischief-ness, and he said quite a lot of dem la.. dowan write here..i shy u noe. This fella makes me smile a lot. I love him to bits!
Den today Sunday.. cleaned my room thoroughly. Haha. den ate. Den watched movie. Den started blogging. At 7pm. Now is 10pm. Still blogging. Waaaaaaaah.. I take so long meh? Oh ya, in between I fed my little bro his dinner all. So not counted! Haha!
Today Monday, usually I’ve PCIT lab den DEC tutorial. My tutorial is cancelled. Lecturer got check up. lol. So school is frm 10am to 12pm! Weeeeeeeee! Will finish early one.. arnd 11.30am.. I wish..
Have to go habourfront to give my hp. Argh. Need to service it. I tot dad give edi. But he haven wallau. I hope I can get before Friday. b4 bro’s engagement!!!! I miss my DOPOD!!!!!!!
Wen for my Check up in KK. 2nd check up aft my op. aft discharge on 1st june, I had to go back for my 1st check up 1 week ltr. And now 6 mths ltr. I was damn afraid of duno wad. I asked my cousin, Yasmeen to follow me. last min, she backed out. Suppose to meet at 9.30am and I had to call her at at 9.40am to ask where she was, and she gave some reasons la.. kinda pissed.
Den I wen to KK on my own.. the reason I dowan to go alone is, I’d be thinking of a lot of stuffs. Wen I reach the hospital, everything came to mind.
Hw I keep coming there for scans, blood tests, see doc, the day doc said I need to hv a surgery, next day bring dad n doc told him the same thing. Den my admission. My bed. the feeling I had wen nurse told me to get ready as I was going to go into the operation theatre. Felt so scared cos family wasn’t here yet. I didn’t wan to go in b4 they come. Called Prince.. cried, tt fella, he was feeling damn worried and was blaming himself tt hes not there. The encouragement words he gave. Family came. The worried look on my parents, no reaction on my 2nd bro’s face, elder bro’s worried face. How I smiled at dem though I was super scared. Didn’t wan dem to feel scared. So I put a brave front. I was smiling. I didn’t expect to smile. Nurse wheeled me into the lobby of the op theatre. Told to go lie down on the stretcher. She briefed me den pushed me into the another lobby, joked with the nurse pushing me. den I was alone.. I was relief wen I saw my doctor. He told me not to worry. Den another nurse inject me n put a tube on my hand. Pain sia. Den pushed into the op theatre. Damn scared n excited. Nv been in a op theatre u see. den frm where I was lying, above me I saw 5 heads looking at me and doing something to me. one of dem was asking me, my name, IC and was toking abt my school den I became unconscious. Finally, I woke up. I was in the lobby. I was inbetween 2 stretches. There were 2 old woman lying jus like me. but I was conscious, they wldnt. i moved abit.. and i felt a sharp pain.. and i yelped.. it was One Indian nurse who woke me up. den aft making sure im alright, she pushed to where my family, Rahima and my elder bro’s fiancé, Rabitha were waiting. I cldnt open my eyes. But I was conscious. Im damn close to dad. 1st person I saw wen I came out was him. his face looked as if he cried. Den I black out. I was waken up by the same nurse.. she told me to get onto my bed. I cldnt. Cos it was damn painful. She said slowly.. another nurse helped me.. and they said, see, I noe u can.. u’re brave.. u’re enduring ur pain well..
The thing is, I cant tahan pain.. I serious cant. Frm heart pain to normal pain. 1st thing I’ll do I cry. But for this, I did cry abit.. but most of the time I tahan. 2 ppl were proud of me. Dad n Prince.
Den saw rahima cry. everyone arnd me were happy tt I came out well. I was too weak to tok to dem.. glad tt they were entertaining demselves. 2nd day, frens n parents n rahima came.. 3rd day lectures n parents n rahima n aunties n uncles n bros n rabitha machi came. 4th day, Prince’s frens whom I noe all came, with parents, bros n rahima n muza n gf n prabz. 5th day bro came to bring me back home safely.
Since im young, I recovered faster den those oldies who were in the same ward. And over there too, I made a gd impression of myself. I made those oldies there in pain smile. I became a part time nurse.. nurses there loved me.. till now if I go there, they recognize me.. =)
So tis was all I was tinking abt… I did cry.. tts why I didn’t wan to go alone.. I msg Rahima whom im meeting aft the appointment. She rushed over. She kept me company.. shes there always.. ALWAYS. =) I love u dear.
Den we wen to hv our lunch at BK in Bugis den we headed down to National Library to discuss abt the secret gift. End up having lotsa laughter and fun.. was a damn nice day out.. we were making fun of each other. Haha.. den wen home.
Called my Prince to say im back. Den ate.. watch tv. Damn tired sia.. duno why.. den b4 falling into a deep slp, Prince called to say he missed me. haha.. duno why.. siao. Den we bullied each other. And I tease his ooru slang English. U gotta change ur slang of English according to the country u’re.. if not they wont understand.
Oh ya.. duno wen he said this.. hes coming back on 26th December 2007! Weeeeeeeeee! Im countdowning! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Today’s 2nd.. 24 days more! yay! He said, can be earlier or 1 day ltr. Im so excited hahaha! Hes coming back during the semester break! 2 weeks holiday! Hes mine! U cant catch me in this 14 days! I’ll be damn damn damn damn damnnnnnn busyyyy! Hahaha!
Tts all for Friday!
Ok now for Thursday…
B4 I start..
Theres 7 ppl who looks like u in this world rite.. ever since half of dem in ur country. And u r the one who always see dem? Well I did. I saw 3 fella who looks like my guy.
One is, my guy himself, 2nd guna, 3rd another fella. The amazing part is, all the 3 are frm Ngee Ann. Weird. Or maybe, I miss him sooo much.. tt whoever I see, looks like him? perhaps perhaps perhaps..
1st 3 hours of lab ended kinda fast. Den wen for lecture. Didn’t pay attention. Too busy exploring Kian Wei’s Sony Ericssion touch screen hp. But wadever it is, my Dopod is the best! Haha! den wen for lunch.. at quite a lot. Den wen up to maths class. Over there oso AL and i laughed a lot. Didn’t pay attention but copied the answers.. AL was ‘combing’ my hairs on my arm with ruler. Den she called tt ind fren, Thammy as Dummy.. for tt we laughed. She purposely leaned on my arm n copied the answers on the bored. This gal ah.. den aft a while, I pinched her. And she yelped, “AW!” damn loud sia. Those arnd us looked at her.. cldnt stop my laughter. Wallau… we kept laughing, making fun of each other n all. Haha.. gundus.. we can nv be bored of each other. =)
Eh.. we’re not together. We’re jus frens. Gd frens. Dun tink otherwise if not, I’ll ask AL kill u. den she go jail. YAY!
Den aft maths, tuition at Teban Gardens. So, played my PSP all the way there. Waahid, my kindergarden bf was beside me. I mean I met him in jurong east interchange. He took train frm clementi while I took bus frm school to jurong. The tuition place is 2 blks away frm his hse. He was talking n talking n talking all the way in the bus. I was too busy playing PSP to pay attention. Well, I did listen. But at one point, he laughed. I looked at him blankly and suddenly laughing cos of his reaction. He tot I was laughing at wad he said. Sorry da… tuition was alrite.. the boys were listening to me as if im some kind of a preacher. Haha. cute la these boys. And not 4getting the pri 2 gal. shes clever. I’ve came across 2 primary 1 gals who were damn weak in reading, but she wasn’t. and she did well for her Pri 1 yr end exam. Im part of the reason!
Nice feeling though. To have someone succeed in their lives/exams cos of u.. haha… im humble.. im not boasting arnd.
Called my Prince while walking to the bus stop. Duno wen is he gonna be tired of bullying me la.. glad tt he loves to see me laugh.. =)
With tt happiness, I broad the bus which jus arrived. And my face turned sour. Cos the bus stink! It smelt as if the bus came directly from india. Inside the bus, most of dem are INDIANS frm INDIA. Oh man.. like mini little india.. damn.. air con bus somemore.. god.. but soon, one by one alighted la..
Den I was lost in my own little world.
I was thinking why am I like this? Hw wld it be if im still naughty n naïve n dun care attitude like b4? Wad if im still attached with my ex? Wad if this n tt.. wahh damn a lot sia.. bus reached JE oso I was still standing. Didn’t alight. I was like stoning with thoughts. Den smthing made me go down the bus. Den I realize I was stoning. And tts wen, AL came to my mind. She’ll happily stone infront of u. dun care if u toking or wad. U’ll be wondering if shes listening to u or not. Tt made me laugh.
But seriously.. these thoughts made me wonder…
I’d be playing around. Spoiling my own image n lost my virginity n all.
But den, the talkativeness, stubbornness, laziness, naughty is all in my blood. Im like this since young. I cant change these. Its like my trademark! Haha.. I was known as the talkative baby ever since I was a baby. Cant tok properly oso wanna talk n talk n talk.. u noe the baby talk? I was like keep on talking. Everyone loved me. haha.
I’d getting a guy.. going on, den break off. Den get a guy, go on den break off. Den get a guy, go on den break off. Again n again. Like nobody’s business. I wont be as matured as I am now.
Prabz. The guy who was my fren. Den became my guy. Den became my fren. Den bestfren. Den guy again. Den best fren again. Now? I duno. Jus a fren? A best fren perhaps? I duno. I really duno.
I confess. I did grew matured with prabz arnd. Hey tt fella is 4 yrs older den me le. But behaves like one whos arnd my age! Compare him to my bro, (both same age), makes me feel my bro is like 30 plus.
Tts prabz’ gd point. We had many similarities. But two differences. 1 : hes a guy and im a gal. 2 : hes damn matured but I was on the process of being one.
Yes of cos, we both have our childish minds. Prabz changed me in a way.. made me think for myself. Judge myself. Understand myself. and he was also there to guide me through. I liked the way he scolded me. haha. if im hurt by someone, instead of supporting me, he’ll scold me saying I did this wrongly.. tt made me go closer to him.. but haishhh… fate la…
I went on with 2/3 guys while we both are close frens. He was there wenever im up n down. Its like ur hp. Ur hp will be with u all the time. Even if u cry or scold. Haha.. im not saying prabz is my hp. But hes my little boy.. the one whom I was ready to give up everything/everyone for. But den, our destiny wasn’t to be together as a couple but as frens. He gave up his love on me, jus cos I said so. I told him we cant be together for these n those reasons. He thought abt it. And let it go. I duno if he really let go or wad la.. all I noe is, I had a difficult time coping with the change of relationship. Frm bf/gf to frens. Heart pain la. The gd thing behind this is, he got a gal who loved him more den me. jus like wad I told him! jus tt shes more conservative. And I got a guy, who loves me more den I do.
Prabz always says this, (referring to me) “ I got a gal who loves me more den I do, I got nth to lose ”
Den aft we finally agreed to be frens till the end he said, “ get a guy who loves u more den u do.. dun get hurt anymore. “ I still rmb.. infact, I rmb every single thing abt him. tts shows hw close I was to him.. I rmb the day I talk to him as if it was yday…. Its written in one of the post here..
Prabz.. though u aint here for me like hw u used to.. u’re still in me.. ur thinkings and ur matured-ness.. I see a Praba in Nazirah. Wad to do la.. moolams.. haha…. yea I noe, im attached. Tt doesn’t mean, I’ve to 4get u. I’ve to get rid of u. my guy noes abt u. like ur gal, he doesn’t like me talking to u. but, he didn’t force me to 4get u. he gave me all the rights to be frens with u. even if he doesn’t, I’d still talk to u. u’re the onli one who understood me completely. 100%. If I tell this to him, he’ll get pissed. Everyone wld la. So I didn’t. not to say he doesn’t understand me completely.. he does la.. I cant say 100%. arnd 98%? Tts more den enuff.. we’re together for a yr now, didn’t see each other for 11 mths. I cant expect more.
But wadever it is rite, im always ur “Typical Princess” who loves building fantasies and get heartbroken wen those fantasies didn’t come true. I bet tt I’d be running to u n crying.
Of cos I got Rahima and the rest. They dun understand me like u n Prince do.. tts for sure. If im sad inside n happy outside, u 2 can found out. But not the rest. If I got a choice, I’d marry the both of u sia.. hahaha!
*complains* one oredi cannot tahan.. now 2…
Den I was thinking wad if I dun get Asan.. tts my Prince. Haha.. his name is Asan for your information! Hahaha! Tt fella, I can say, hes great. He changed me a lot. Frm inpatient to patient to everyting.. except for the talkativeness, stubbornness, laziness, naughtiness. Currently he gave up on this. Hes waiting to get back to SG den see abt this. Hahaha! U cant my boy..
Hmm.. I 2 great gifts from God. Asan & Prabz. Haishhh…
Why cant seem to let my best friend goooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
Im attached to a lovable donkey! And yet im still thinking abt my bestie. Whether hes alrite/eaten/slpt/etc???????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Hes attached toooooooooooooooooooooo!
Arrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhh……….. h e l p
Aiya… im going crazy.. all these I was thinking in the bus.. yea, I did have tears in my eyes....
Reached home. Showered for an hour. Lost in thoughts. Wasted water. Ate. Called Prince and complain.
Hahaha.. and he called me “Complain Queen” wen I said im still a princess, he said, “ no no, I promoted u edi” waaaallllllllaaaaaaaau… hes cute.
I was telling him, I cant seem to stop caring abt Prabz and all.. den he said, cos of the friendship u guys had. U 2 were very close I guess.. den he said if I still love him.. I was quiet. Den I asked why? he said, “assume u still love him, I’d let u go. Cos ur happiness is mine. (he took my line! Toopid) I wan u to be happy. If u going back to him makes u happy, I’d let u go. At the same time, I’d try my best not to let u go. Cos I noe, tt if u’re gone, my life wld shatter. U changed my life without u realizing. I had a bad intention abt gals jus b4 u entered my life. And u gave me a big full stop by giving me ur love. And I am sure tt I wont be myself if u’re gone.” I told him, “ even if give me a chance to go back to him, I wldnt. Cos Prabz is now attached. I dowan to go into his life, make some appearance, den his gal unhappy den they fight… I dowan to be the reason. You taught me to be happy with wadever I hv/get… like u said, I too cant be myself If I dun hv u in my life..” and he said, “ ma, I really love u da. “ weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Ok sorry.
Prabz.. I noe theres smth wrong with ur relationship. Smth missing. But be happy with wad u hv k ya? And pls pls pls pls.. try to meet me.. I really wanna look at u and laugh at u.. hahaha! We both are gd in tt rite? Bullying! Hahaha!
Im glad u let me go… I’ve found this wonderful guy… and im sure, u’ve found urs too.. but its slow in processing… tk things slowly yea?
Hmm..
I love u both!
He asked, “ whos Eezah “
And I replied, “ Eezah is a gal whom I noe since yr 1. Talked to her in yr 2. Had fun in lecture during PCIT”
Haha. I’ve seen her arnd in yr 1 till now. But nv tok to her. 1st I tot, ah.. shes wearing tudung. Is she friendly n whacky like me? or is she stuck up? she was in the same lecture class in yr 1. But we nv tok. I had this impression tt she unfriendly n etc. but this sem, aft she got into the same class as Vickii, den I realize shes not wad I tot. shes somehw like me, but a quieter version. Haha… no body can be like me. rite? Hahaha! The things I did during secondary school all. Haha.
So in short, shes my new fren. *grins*
Tt HE is my dearest Donkey.. currently being hired in India..
Having happy moments in life. Wad more can I expect?
Last post abt Tuesday.. Wednesday was.. ah.. hmm..
Eh! WEDNESDAY! PCIT! GUNA! EXCITEMENT! WOAHH… but nth like tt happen. Bleah..
According to Guna, PCIT starts at 10am. But for us is at 9am. The 1st thing Ai Li & I did wen we reached the lecture theatre was, SLEEP
We slpt for one hour straight. But of cos, the table was like moving moving.. I duno hw to explain the table la.. but if u’re frm Ngee Ann, our table is the table in all the lecture theatres. Moving moving type.
Imagine u’re slp. Den the table drop. And u’ll wake up with tt f**king feeling as if u jus fall. Woke up jus in time to see Guna making his guest appearance. I was like, why must I wake up wen he is jus entering? -_-
Den few seconds ltr, Ai Li woke up. the exercise part was going on in the lecture. Did some copying frm the screen. Den msg Vickii to ask her to get her ass n Eezah’s back to the theatre. They were in the library. Scared dem saying class ended. And wen they came back, Vickii almost murdered me for lying. Wahaha! I love doing this.
The best part is, Vickii fall. But she caught herself. N the guys were making fun of her. She did a stunt sia. I saw but Ai Li didn’t. so I asked Vickii if she can do her free performance one more time. Haha. the guys were making some remake of her fall. Haha.. cute la.. we bullied n teased her to the max sia.. haha.. can see she feeling paiseh. Haha.. sorry abt tt Vickii.. part & parcel of ur poly days.. enjoy it till u can. =)
Den me n Ai Li headed to blk 5 co-op, bought some tidbits. I bought “bee-bee”! been damn long since I ate this small pkts of tidbits. Den headed to our maths lecture. In class, Ai Li and I, wahh.. tell u.. we laughed n laughed n laughed.. small thing oso laugh..
I got bullied by her. She prevented me from eating my snack. Pig. Den she dropped hers all over my seat area den blame me tt I spilled it. Wallau.. typical 3 yrs old mentality. Hehehe!
Den aft tt lunch break, every wed, we’ll meet our frens. Cos tts the onli time we hv the same break time. So on the way to meet our frens, we continue bullying each other.
Met up with shamz n nisha babes. Again, laugh n laugh. Den I started singing, “ Mele yeri vaaro, o-thingi nillu “ den nisha said, u sing tt to ur guy, he’ll commit suicide. Wallau.. I sing tt horrible meh… sobzz! I definitely CANT be compared to my guy. Tt donkey is a SINGER, im jus, tt singer’s gf. Haha. den shamz took the last word of my song, “nillu” and sang, “nila kagirathu” den aft she stop nisha continued. Den came up with our own songs sia. Had a gd laugh. Den rushed over to blk 4, where Ai Li always PATIENTLY wait for me. haha. recently, Kian Wei, one of my classmates, bubbly fella, he’ll wait together with AL for me. hw sweeeeeeeeeeeet. i’ll come earlier next time k? sowwie.. actually, the class is at 1pm, and I’ll leave my frens at 12.57pm-1pm den rush over to meet AL. no wonder im always late!!!!!!!!
OOPS
Den had revision for lab. Finished so fast. Next week is the test.
I always connect the ground and the supply onto the circuit board while AL will be doing the rest of connection. In short, without the groung and supply the whole circuit wont work. So tt oso imply tt without me AL’s connection wld fail. Hahahaha! Perasaan sia.
2 hrs lab, but we finished it in 20 mins. Den we left home. We took bus to bb den frm there tk train n wen back hm. Den rested awhile at home den ciao for tuition in Marsling Drive.
At 1st tt K2 gal was damn weak.. now slowly shes improving. Im so happy.. this gal is improving cos shes oso putting in efforts. And at the same time, Im being damn patient and im oso having this, “never give up on her no matter hw slow/weak she is” and there u go.. her mom aka my ex colleague, she was oso happy wen she saw her work. Great rite!!
Den came home. Ate. Den duno wad I did. 4got. Wahahaha!
Oh ya, since bro’s engagement is arnd the corner, Rahima & I planned to give a surprise for the 2 couples. None of my family members noes abt it yet. SECRET! Im not gonna tell u either. Ai Li noes abt it.. but no one else noes. I shall tell u abt this on Thursday, wen the gifts are ready to be given. Rite Rahima? Tell u ah, we had a difficult time buying stuffs infront of my family and hiding it. Haha. and we are damn damn excited abt it! Yay!!!!
I love Rahima.
Hehe!
Tts all for Wednesday!
