Sunday, July 13, 2008 | 9:01 PM | 0 Comments



Didn’t update for quite long ah..
I lurff my c0ffee sh0p b0y.. met him on 8th july.. aft my FTT.
And I failed again =(
I went tuiti0n bef0re meeting him.. we met at BBDC. He was applying f0r his BTT. He 0redi g0t license but in 0rder t0 get the internati0nal license he has t0 tk his BTT n FTT onli.
I was super dem0ralised aft failing f0r the 5th time. I dun0 wad was s0 difficult. Aiyahh..
Den B0yy said, try till the end. N0 harm..
G0t 0ne big harm la.. m0ney harm. 0ne b00king is $6.. and am I supp0se t0 spend s000000 much 0n this?
Hw can s0me cld pass in 0ne take? H0wwwwwwwwwwww!
B0yy’s BTT is 0n 6/9/2008 at 10.15am. f0r FTT, there was a sl0t 0n the same day! 6/9/2008 but at 11.45am. same day.. gddd!
He was b0asting tt he can pass in 0ne take. LETS SEE!
Aft b00king, we were pinching, hitting, biting each 0ther till bukit g0mbak mrt.
And we were like disturbing each 0ther t00 much. Every gal wh0 walk pass us will l00k at B0yy and I’ll purp0sely h0ld his arm t0 indicate tt HES MINE!
And every guy wh0 walks pass me will l00k at me.. and he’ll d0 the same..
Very cute la..
Hes s0 jeal0us wen a guy l00ks at me.. and he’ll say, “ oh like tt la.. he l00k s0 u l00k 0s0 la.. d0wan me la n0w..” haha.. this gundu is such a cutie.

For 2 days n0w.. im getting irritated 0n him. c0s 0f my PMS la.. aiyah.. den tt fella 0s0 f0ught back n stuffs.
S00n, aft much t0king abt my stupid 0perati0n and its alternate mths 0f peri0ds, he actually F0RG0T tt I t0ld him I was havin tt. 0MG.
And den 0nli he realized why I was getting angry 0ver small stuffs.. he was angry of himself.. he wen d0wn t0 the park near his hse.. he sat at the places where we sat n bullied and teased each 0ther.
And he was feeling very angry over himself. Aiyah..
And he came h0me aft 3 hrs, and called me and said s0rry all the way..
C0me0n, hes a guy I cant blame him..

N0w everything is sm000000000000th..

Been meeting B0yy f0r alm0st everyday last week. Kinda stress. Seeing him, reliefs my stress. Hes the best.
Went t0 watch Dasavatharam in GV yishun. 11.30am sh0w. kinda nice. But in middle g0t abit b0ring. Den back t0 nice. 4 stars f0r u Kamal!
Den aft tt wen B00n Keng with B0yy t0 c0llect my lapt0p. B0yy and Arun were having a big misunderstanding. Started with Arun. Anyhw accuse B0yy wen 0ne 0f the tenants were in fault.
Aft tt smth happen which I really d0wan t0 t0k abt it. Peri0d.
Came back t0 aunt hse. Did last m0ment pr0ject wrks. N0w waiting f0r Vicki t0 c0me 0nline.
Had a quarrel with the lazy stupid Edward. He ended up telling me n0t t0 bring pers0nal pr0bs int0 w0rk. I was like wad? Did i?
AT LEAST I DID MY PART. I didn’t give excuses tt im having pr0bs and DIDN’T D0. UNLIKE U. still can say, im waiting f0r u to send me. fuck u la. Take the initiative and d0 a bit 0f the wrk la. Waiting f0r me f0r wad? Den end up like the previ0us assignment. I RE-DID THE WHOLE PPT SLIDES WITH DIFFERENT SOURCES AND TEXT N INF0S. and s0me0ne, 0n the day 0f presentati0n, t00k 0ut few slides 0ff, saying its t00 lengthy.. wth.. did with s0 much 0f hard wrk n all, and s0me0ne t00k away few slides.
But still in the end, all ended well. We knew our parts, we didn’t stammer or wadever. We were quite fluent, jus tt our skit was ABIT cocked up. We were happy.
Ok past is past.
Lets tok abt this assignment 2. So wad did this Edward did? Nth AGAIN? Why la why.. why must I be the one who has to do everything. The grp paired me with this idiot. So it’s a pair wrk rite?
The whole grp noes hw fucking busy I am. Tuiti0n every single day. Teaching n suffering myself jus t0 earn s0me m0ney t0 pay my bl00dy sch00l fees. Unlike this ppl, getting all0wance f0r f00d n transp0rt and 0ther expenses. I’VE T0 WRK F0R IT. I DUN HV A M0NEY TREE WHICH I CAN PLUCK ANYTIME AND PAY F0R MY SCH00L FEES. Ask th0se wh0 g0es lunch 0r breaks with me. ask dem will I eat during th0se times. 0ut 0f 5 days, 0nli 2 days. C0s I scared I cann0t pay my sch00l fees. IM A G0D DAMN GAL. I 0S0 WISH T0 BUY THIS N TT. and everytime I see wad I like, I jus dr00l 0ver it and get 0ver it n scram fr0m tt place.
If B0yy’s there, he MIGHT buy f0r me, UNLESS he g0t m0ney. Hes pathetically earning, $800 per mth. $500 g0es t0 his loan and $250 g0es t0 his br0, wh0 applied l0an f0r his lapt0p. and he has onli $50 left f0r himself. This is wad happens every single mth. If he does OT, he’ll get abt 100-200 extra.
I’ve t0tally 0f 6 bl00dy tuiti0ns. 2 0f the fees I’ll give t0 B0yy f0r his expenses. Infact, I give him all. All the 6 fees. He sets aside abit and gives me abit n takes abit for himself. My fees + his salary. We share and give each 0ther an amt t0 spend. And this fees 0f mine, c0mes 0NCE A MTH. At a different days in a mth. And we’ll fear tt If we spend all the m0ney 0ne tuiti0n gives, end 0f the mth, we might hv enuff.
We r living in difficultly. He gives me $30 per week. And in tt $30 I get, I’ll save abt $5 or $6.. cos the stupid transport expenses has risen And I’ve to t0p up my ezlink card every 2 days. Or 3 days. N0 m0ney t0 eat at times.. and I g0 tuiti0n twice per day. And everytime, its empty st0mach. Haiz…
Im n0t c0mplaining abt my life.. tts hw G0d has written it. C0mplain 0s0 n0 use.

B0tt0m line is, even th0ugh im suffering and even th0ugh im c0ming h0me at 10.30pm t0 11pm EVERY SINGLE DAY, I manage t0 get my pr0ject d0ne. by staying super late at nite, den slp f0r awhile den g0 t0 sch00l. den g0 tuiti0n.
And this Edward, is saying tt I DIDN’T wan t0 give him my part. Accusing me? well, am I supp0se t0 remember everything. He n0es tt I’ve t0 give him. actually, I DUN HV T0 GIVE HIM. we’re supp0se t0 d0 t0gether. Why cant he d0 den give me? hes a man rite? Waiting f0r a woman’s approach. Ask him t0 die la. S0 wadever it is, acc0rding t0 him, I’ve t0 give him. s0 why didn’t he sms me 0r call? N0 number? 0k fine. Why didn’t he msn me? hes 0nline EVERYDAY. And sees me 0nline EVERYDAY. Im n0t 0nline wen he wanted t0 ask me? 0k fine.. why the fuck theres this thing called EMAIL. 0h ya I f0rg0t: 0FFLINE MSG!!!!
Is he dumb? Cb.
Den last min, he asked me t0 send him. I s0me hw predicted wad he’ll d0. Since its last min, he’ll jus tell every0ne tt every inf0 is in my part.. and its perfect n n0 need t0 add anything edi. Tts wad he said the previ0us time. Dammit.
I wasn’t at a gd state wen he asked me.. and I gave a peace 0f my mind. And I t0ld Vicki abt it. And guess he “cried” t0 vicki abt it. Vicki said he sounded pissed.
Ask him go t0ilet n piss hw much he wans la.. n0t resp0nsible at all.. call himself a man. G0 wear skirt. 0nli n0e hw t0 get angry. But wen a gal screws him, he’ll get super damn angry. St0p ur drama n get t0 wrk la cb.
I saw him 0nline, but I didn’t b0ther t0 msg. he didn’t either. G00D. stay away. I bite.
Aft awhile, I smsed him t0 get 0nline if p0ssible. He replied aft like 40mins, saying hes 0utside. 0utside getting screwed? Wahahaha.. get AIDS den HIV den die la.
Den I replied saying,” K wadever, we cant d0 this n tt n0w.. we’ve t0 wait f0r the c0mpilati0n t0 be 0ver den 0nli can start n I’ve edi gathered inf0 abt the last qn. D0 u hv urs? “
N0 reply. I’ve t0 wait f0r tt fucking cb prince t0 reply me. an0ther 40 mins.

I n0e im vulgar here. Cant help it. Dun like? Jus scram. N0t my pr0b. this is my bl0g and I d0 wad I like. U wanna read, jus g0 ahead.
D0wan? Den jus shut up and st0p reading 0ther ppl’s life j0urnal la.. get a life.

Dammit. Im n0t hving my menses. But im irritated. Damn laaaaaaa.. arrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhh

I need my lime juice.



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