Friday, August 10, 2007 | 10:44 PM | 0 Comments


" u won't say a word, n u won't even look. u call it concentration. but boy, it pricks my heart so much n i still yearn for the moment u would turn and tell me, that u understand how i feel."





but there's something baby u need to know. that deep inside of me.. i feel like i'm dying. i have to see u. it's all that i'm asking... its been mths tt i've seen u. i feel so jealous of other couples together, hugging n being so close. it hurts me deep in my heart. but tt sight makes me happy, to tink tt at least they are together, enjoying each other's company.. tears will appear in my eyes, but i'll prevent it frm flowing down..




everyday as i battle being have to answer to people's questions, i keep my hurt thoughts buried deep in. if only he understood n lend me his shoulder, i think even the greatest waterfalls might lose out to me. i just am used to being alone. it's true ur mind wanders in all directions and memories of the past haunt u but then, thats's the way that first love goes.. so what's so amazing? actually everyone has their own sad story, it is just that some say and some don't. so which list are u in?

whichever ways it takes, fate always has its reasons i belief..
and i was thinking alot that i had to convey my feelings when i myself wasn't quite sure yet. no electrical impulses have struck my coronary artery yet. so why this rush? just goes on to show how much i need to lean on someone's shoulder now and drain all those tears out.

As I try and try, my obsession doesn't seem to allow me to live...
at times when u feel u need someone to hear u out, or feel so hurt inside that u wanna throw every thought out, n just be an empty mind, just stop. stop what u r doing. go somewhere alone. and cry. and when u cry, u will cry so hard that u'd surprised at ur own internal pain. the result of always holding back tears, is just more pain. today, i had never expected to cry that hard. for a problem i've had almost all my life.. i just couldn't stop.
*Bish Bish*
*Dish Dish*
*slaps herself*
m0st of my relationship ended cos of suspicion. which i hates it realli alot. why u wanna suspect the gal, who has be truthful to u since the 1st day? i got no idea wads going on in his mind..
a sign tt hes gonna leave me? wth.. he wont do tt.. i noe.. he realli wans me to be with him.. but why is he acting like tis? stress? he didnt pick up my 2 calls.. n didnt return dem either.. busy or ignore? by right i shld be angry.. but hes angry.. wad u wan me to do?
blur abt wads the prob is? toking more abt it hurts me..
Prabz said, lets give him some time, like 3 days, if he doesnt call, call it an end..
Anand, he was blaming me for him to behave like tt.. " nee enna panne.. u noe he stress... blah blah blah "
Anees said dun let tis distract ur studies.. give him some time..
Vicknesh said, i need a break..
Dhinesh said, i gave in to him too much..
Priya said, break off with him n go on with her =.=
Rahima as usual supports me in wadever i do, and tells me indirectly.. wen i tell her wad others said, she'll say, i said indirectly, there said directly =.="
Deva said, Long distant relationship doesnt wrk at all.. n wen i said tt im trying to prove it wrong, he said, its ur age, u wont listen to me now..
WTH U GUYS WANT ME TO DO.. everything was perfect, until mid july till now.. why? why why why why...
im G0NE


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