Monday, April 9, 2007 | 11:51 PM | 0 Comments
The P0sitive And Negitive 0f Being Al0ne
Being al0ne is a state of ecstasy
Being al0ne is a quiet 0rgasm
Being al0ne is like the s0und of silence
Being al0ne is making 0ne side of the bed
Being al0ne is arguing with y0urself in the mirr0r
Being al0ne is n0t seeing y0urself in the mirr0r
Being al0ne can bec0me a permanent state
Being al0ne d0es n0t disapp0int
Being al0ne all0ws y0u t0 expl0re y0ur inner self
Have I ever told you that if I sit really still and silent, sometimes. I like to think I can hear your heart beating in time with mine?
Have I ever told you that when I watch you speak to me through lines and cords,and bytes and ram, I imagine your voice, whispering into my ear?
Have I ever told you that I wait out each day in anticipation,wanting only an hour or two, just a second in space and time, to feel close to you?
Have I ever told you that there has been times,when I ached for you, ached for you so badly,that the emotions overwhelmed me..and so I sat and cried?
Have I ever told you that sometimes,I will reach out, touching your name on this cold screen before me, wishing I could reach in and pull you to me?
Have I ever told you that after the first time I heard the sound of your voice,thousands of miles away, I sat up all night, turning the conversation over and over in my mind, examining it, like some newly discovered species of flower? Have I ever told you that I would give everything up, just for one night to be able to lay near you, to feel your chest rise and fall with each breath you take, just to know that you are real? Have I ever told you that I dream of you often, I dream of you reaching out and touching my hand, simply to let me know that you are there, and everything is okay?
Have I ever told you, have I still yet to tell you . . . that I love you?
will I get tt l0ve back? Wen I miss y0u, I see ur face 0n the m00n. tears fl0w wen I typed this. h0pe y0u get wad I mean. im still waiting f0r… y0u
~ Something that i alwayz wanted ~
Having a big sister by your side 24/7, is the best its just like heaven.
someone to tell all your secrets to, and they always noe what to do.
That special person, I never had in my life,i don't know who to tell my secrets to everyday.
no one to listen or to share, I cant tell my 2 brothers abt wad I feel,
I cant even tell my mom, leave alone dad.
I always wanted a sister in my life..
Been in tis world for 19 years, With brothers growing along wit me.
Advantage: They get the roughness in life.
They have to go thru pain, while I jus enjoy.
They will be my shield and I’ll be protected.
Get wadeva I want.
Disadvantages: Boys will always play with boys, and I’ll be left alone.
Cant share my feelings.
They always leak out my secrets to mom.
They cant be my role model. (if not I’ll turn into a guy)
I cant ask dem for advices.
Will they always be there to encourage me
And through life's ordeals?
To my brothers: I gave you tears, you gave me laughter. I gave you peace, you gave me honesty. I gave you courage, you gave me humility.and in the end it will be fine!
Haiz.. I cant expect a sister suddenly to grow frm mom’s womb n be older den me.. in next birth perhaps.. but in return… I got a lot of god sisters..Sisters born from separate wombs. Been there like my very own. But.. they’ll nv be MINE.(I wan a elder sister..)
♥ TrappedButterfly
