Friday, December 18, 2009 | 1:30 AM | 0 Comments

uploading kinda late.. but.. haha who cares!

NEW MOON WITH FATHIMA!










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♥ TrappedButterfly



 
    | 12:36 AM | 0 Comments

its been 2 days since i last called him. i dun hv many to call him.

guess wad, he didnt bother calling me back either. sad rite. haish..

actually more to miss u, im getting more pissed with him..

i mean, where are all his promises?

"ma, i'll call u every single day, dun worry."
"ma, i'll nv 4get u"
"ma, i'll always be there for u."

where? where?

nth.

i call him. not he calls me.

i told u many times b4.

"see ma, aft u get married, u'll be totally a different man.. u wont call or have much contact with me, cos u're family man. u'll hv someone permanent with u. cannot say i wanna break off."

and he will get pissed and say, " dun tok nonsense k ah, i'll always talk to u. u're not someone i can 4get. u're my life."

and i will say, "oh, den marry ME"

and he'll reply, " u noe abt my mom rite.. wad can i do? no choice.."

abdul bro said, " if tt fella really loves u, he'll do everything beyond his means to get u.."

but deep in my heart, i noe he tried. he loves his mom. mom or gf? or lets say, bf or Aziz? i'll def. say Aziz.

mom or bf? MOM
dad or bf? DAD
bros or bf? BROS
husband or bf? HUSBAND LAAAH

so family comes 1st.

his mom threatened him.. so hes left w/o a choice. ok.. den wad abt me.. jus smile n walk away?

man, i was with him for 3 yrs.

I was with during his ups and downs
I was with him wen he was sad
I was with him wen he was happy
I was with him wen he was jobless
I was with him wen he got a job
I was with him wen he had trouble for PR
I was with him wen he had a PR
I was with him wen he didnt had a hse/room to stay
I was with him wen he was without money
I was with him wen he decided to start a business
I was with him wen he was choosing the shop
I was with him wen he was short of cash for the shop
I was with him wen the shop went down
I was with him wen the shop prospered again
I was with him wen he wanted another shop
I was with him wen he had trouble paying for the poultry and vegs
I was with him....... the list really goes on.. (listing a few ONLY)
I was with him everyday after work, staying till 10.30pm to help him out
I was with him wen he chose his groom suit
I was with him wen i PAID for his suit
I was with him wen we collected his suit
I was with him wen we went to buy his shoes for his marriage
I was with him wen we had our last meal together
I was with him till the very last minute...

he is now with another woman.

i noe i did my job as a gf.
i noe i was a great gf.

just tat i was appreciated.

the money spent,
the time spent,
all for him..

its been 2 days.. dun even bother asking me if im ok.

this really really hurts me.

once i called, it was very depressing for me.

he sounded down, i asked him if everything's ok.
he said, yaya, jus got tension.
i asked, why?
he didnt wanna say..

he said, i dun feel like toking to anyone. but u called few times so, i picked up.
he didnt want to talk much.
he said he had fever for 2 days.
i asked hws the shop gg n etc.

i had this feeling tt he doesnt want to talk to me. fine.. i wanted to hang up..

the line reception sucked actually. so line got cut. he didnt call back. and i didnt too.

2 days ago, wen i called, i had high fever. i duno why, wen i miss him so much, i'll get fever. jus im jus straining myself..

and i called n called n called n called n called him. he didnt pick up my call..

i got more frustrated. wth.. im sick here and u're not even picking up?

den i realise, who the fuck am i to him? why the fuck does he have to bother if im sick or not?

but still i got no heart, i wanted to call him one last time.. if he doesnt, den tts it. no more calls to him.

den i call.. and guess wad he picked up. WOOOOOW!

i sounded angry. i asked, hey u busy?
n he said, ya... busy.. i call u ltr.
i said, u wont call. i noe. anyway, listen, im having a high fever.. and doc said its H1N1.( yes, i lied.. to see his reactions)
he said, aiyaa.. why suddenly..
i said, i duno.. tts why im been trying to call u from morning, but Mr.Asan doesnt want to bother.
he kept quiet.
i continued, anyway, even if i die oso, someone tried calling me from my hp oso, i guess u wont pick up and will nv noe tt im dead. i doubt tt u'll even come for my funeral..

and the reception sucked. and line got cut.

1/2 mins ltr, i called again, he actually cut my line. den i called again, it was in waiting line. wow.. for 5mins, den i called again, he cut my line..

i was like WAT THE FUCK MAN.

i scolded myself and said, ok Nas, one last last last time k? i promised myself. i called..

the line went on n on on.. till it cut itself.. i was like.. hmm.. tts it.. tts all the respect i got from him.

hes happy there.. MOVED ON edi.. why am i wasting my time for someone who'll nv be mine..

fine.. im moving on..

if i ever see him on the road, im gonna spit on his face.


i told Abdul bro this, and he was kinda proud of me.. :)

haiz...


♥ TrappedButterfly