Day 4 at w0rk
Maarning, as usual, alighted at BV.. and c0me 0ut the stati0n and was g0ing d0wn the escalat0r when s0me0ne was calling 0ut, “Aunty!! Aunty!! Aunty!!” I was in a slpy m00d and I t0t f0r a sec0nd if im an aunty and c0nfirmed myself tt I wasn’t, s0 I didn’t b0ther t0 l00k arnd.. I was guessing, s0me Aunty dr0pped her gr0ceries 0r wallet 0r wadever la.. s0 I didn’t turn..
Dun0 why since I started this j0b.. every m0rning, I’ll be a Z0mbie.. until s0me t0ks t0 me.. weird but true.
The v0ice was c0ming cl0se t0 me.. but still I didn’t turn.. pr0blem.. l0lx.. den suddenly, “Aunty u dr0pped this” s0me0ne said t0 me.. I didn’t l00k at tt pers0n, but was l00king at wad he was handing 0ut t0 me..
Its my CC’s Staff pass..
Th0ugh im a z0mbie in the m0rning, my brain still functi0ns.. s0, I was like.. eh, I where g0t pass.. den I l00ked at the pers0n, it was Firdaus.. 0MG! damn embarrassing.. I l00ked arnd.. few were l00king at me.. and I smiled f00lishly.. and I didn’t see the escalat0r’s end was c0ming.. and I wld hv fall if Fir didn’t h0ld my arm..
And I was t0king t0 him in half whisper and half paiseh feeling.. “why d0 u hv t0 call me aunty and den make a scene.. paiseh u n0e!” All he did was laugh.. I was like.. WTF.. I jus walked infr0nt 0f him.. I wasn’t angry.. c0s I was still in the m00d 0f slping.. and I felt kinda paiseh 0s0.. I jus didn’t hv m00d t0 j0ke 0r get angry 0r whatever.. I wasn’t in the m00d 0f t0king! U n0e wen u wake up.. u dun feel like t0king.. like tt la.. den he run aft me and said s0rry s0rry.. playing with u ma.. I dun hv ur number, if n0t I’ll call u and tell u t0 wait up f0r me.. 0r if I see u, instead 0f calling 0ut ur name 0r aunty.. I can jus call u wad ma..
And tt is wen, I g0t super pissed.. jus c0s he called me “ma”…
I jus st0pped at my tracks and l00ked at him n said in a whisper and angry t0ne.. “Dun call me MA, understand???????” den I started walking.. he came aft me and asked.. “why u getting angry? I cant call u ma? Den call u wad, di? Da? Dei? Oi?”
And I replied, “ I g0 by a name called Nazirah.. u can call me tt..” and he laughed.. I jus stare at him f0r few sec0nds.. ( all this happen while walking t0 the CC ) and he said, “ haha… I n0e u’re pissed with me f0r calling u tt.. and u really can t0k back t0 s0me0ne ah.. funny and cute la.. “
Wah man.. I pissed edi la.. I said, “ my guy, d0esnt call me by my name.. he calls me MA.. wen I call him, the next w0rd aft “HELLO” wld be “MA”.. 0nli wens hes pissed with me f0r s0me reas0n, den 0nli he’ll say my name.. get it? St0p calling me tt.. and I t0ld u edi, im attached.. if u’ve s0me reas0n f0r ur friendliness t0wards me, jus end it here.. jus c0s im 0ne 0f ur colleagues, im jus keeping quiet.. c0s I’ve t0 wrk in the same envir0nment.. if u’re n0t, den tts a different st0ry.. “
I seri0usly felt s0 much better aft saying tt.. and he said, “Dei.. why da.. dun be angry da.. I jus t0ld u frankly wadever I felt t0wards u… true I like u.. and I n0e u’re n0t g0ing t0 give in.. I dun0 hw t0 get rid the t0t 0f u.. tis will be the last time u’ll hear such related things frm me.. im s0rry.. I didn’t mean t0 hurt u.. “
I st0pped half way and I t0ld him, lets sit.. ( 20 mins m0re t0 get t0 0ffice.. and the CC is jus 1 min walk away) he was like 0ne puppy listening t0 the 0wner.. and quickly wen t0 sit at the st0ne table w/o saying anyting..
We sat 0pp0site 0pp0site.. I begin my lecture.. I left it up t0 him f0r his 0wn practical.. all I said was..
“Firdaus.. I t0k u listen.. ok? (he n0dded) Inge paaru, I didn’t ask f0r ur s0rry.. wadever u’ve d0ne 0r said, is all 0ver.. saying s0rry d0esnt change a single thing.. I didn’t say I c0mpletely hate u.. I like u.. I like Amir and Parthi and the rest.. u guys are very j0vial.. very cute, funny and etc etc.. my days at this CC wld be s0 dull and sickening and the time will drag IF u 3 aint there.. im jus lucky tt I g0t a j0b in this CC.. but I didn’t expect u t0 gr0w feelings like 2/3 days aft I arrive.. isn’t tt funny? And u can say, l0ve at 1st sight.. I dun believe tt shit.. its n0t tamil padam u n0e.. 0k fine, be it l0ve at 1st sight, tell me wad u’ll n0e abt tt pers0n u hv l0ve 0n the 1st sight? Can u see their character frm the b0dy language? Can u see their past frm their eyes? Can u understand the real pers0n behind the mask shes wearing?
He was silent..
0k fine.. lets n0t t0k abt s0me0ne wh0 dun exist. Take me.. u said l0ve at 1st sight.. wad did u liked in me tt u gr0w ur fantasies??
He said, “ I liked ur friendliness, I liked the way u behave with ppl arnd u.. and.. I g0t attracted by ur smile and ur eyes.. “
I resp0nded, “ MY WHAT?”
He said, “ smile and eyes.. 0n the 1st day itself, I saw u smiling al0t.. and wen u t0k 0s0 u smile.. and I like tt m0le ab0ve ur lips.. ( I was like.. DAMN U.. ) den, wen u t0k rite.. if I look into ur eyes.. it seem t0 gl0w.. and, ur eyes attracted me..”
And I said, “ kk enuff.. I dun0 whether t0 believe u 0r wad.. but I w0nt.. I n0e men l0ves t0 sweet t0k.. their fav h0bby.. wad the hell u n0e abt me den? I can be s0me0ne wh0 was in pr0bati0n.. n0w I thirunthuraan den wear scarf all? I can be s0me0ne wh0 has d0ne bad stuffs and I c0vering myself? I can be s0me0ne wh0 c0mmited a crime? U’ll nv n0e.. n0wadays, females wear scarf 0s0 make 0ut in the public.. hmmm… ithu paaru da.. im attached f0r a yr plus.. and I really l0ve my guy and he l0ves me t00.. and theres a pr0b in his family.. which I d0wan t0 t0k abt.. im n0t asking u t0 get 0ut frm my life.. I cant, c0s everyday I see u in 0ffice.. b0 pian.. I jus wan u t0 st0p having tis fantasy and saying my eyes gl0w and my butt farts all.. ( he smiled ) we shall be wh0 we are.. I n0e its kinda hurting tt I’ve said tis straight f0rward. Im like tis.. I dun like means, I dun like.. im stubb0rn.. “
He pr0mised me he w0n say anyting like tt t0 me.. and we bec0me friends again!! His whacky-ness began 0nce we stepped int0 the 0ffice.. aiy00.. Again laughter.. st0mach pain la.. den g0ing h0me time, Amir was gg his Grandma hse.. Parthi 0ff.. I walked t0 the MRT with Fir.. and we br0ke fast by drinking ice lem0n tea.. frm c0ffee sh0p the h0me made 0ne..
Felt unc0mf0rtable walking with him.. dun0 why.. s0 0nce at the stati0n I t0ld him, I waiting f0r my guy.. u g0 ahead.. and he insisted in staying.. den I said, if he n0es he’ll get p0nna pissed and suspect and I get sad.. den he said 0k0k.. den I see u tmr den he left…
Den I came h0me.. I was like feeling guilty.. c0s wadever happens t0 me tt day, I’ll tell Prince.. but tis fella liked me frm day 1.. but I didn’t tell.. s0 I was like telling him at nite.. the thing I liked in Prince is, if I g0t smth t0 say, he’ll keep really silent and listen t0 me… and he’ll t0k onli wen I finish.. ( c0s, if he interrupts, I’ll 4g0t half 0f the thing I was abt t0 tell him.. and c0s he wants me t0 0pen up.. =)
S0 yea.. I g0t a bit 0f sc0lding.. he asked if im there t0 wrk 0r have fun.. well, if u enj0y g0ing wrk means, u dun hv t0 d0 a single wrk wad.. he said, he was happy tt I t0ld him all this.. and he t0ld me t0 watch 0ut f0r him.. and s0me 0ther things which are n0t c0ming t0 mind right n0w.. aft tt, he was AGAIN bullying me..
I actually feel happy weneva he sc0lds me.. tt sh0ws tt he g0t the rights and he sc0lding me c0s he l0ves me.. he wants me t0 g0 t0 the right part.. at least he d0esnt sc0lds me f0r small things like my 2nd br0..
*bites Rahima*
W0kays.. tts all f0r day 4 at w0rk..
