Saturday, July 7, 2007 | 10:46 PM |
t0day is 07/07/07!
as f0r yday.. i d0wan t0 t0k abt my pain.. im sick & tired 0f telling th0se i n0e abt my pain. i receive nth in return. i was expecting 0ne t0 say, ''0h.. take g00d care 0f urself.. listen t0 d0c, eat medi" n stuffs but n0 0ne did.. bleahh... s0 slpt early yday c0s medicine made me dr0wwwsyy...
t0day.. well nth much.. slpt at 10.30pm w0ke up at 11am.. maaadu sia.. den tt lump bel0w, kinda burst i guess, c0s i w0ke up having bl00d in my trackpants.. errmmz... i cldnt slp well yday.. i keep dreaming tt i being pushed d0wn.. 1st 0ne was, i n dun0 wh0 ( dun rec0gnise tt pers0n ) were walking d0wn a flight 0f stairs.. den s0me0ne behind pushed.. den i fall.. den i jerked n w0ke up.. my heart was beating fast.. den 2nd 0ne was, i was being pushed d0wn a hill.. 3rd 0ne is n0t pushing d0wn but scaring me. i was walking in a f0rest.. den i suddenly turn right, i saw a white figure 1 step away frm me.. n i screamed.. wen i w0ke up, i realised i was still screaming.. daddy came int0 my r00m n asked wad happen.. i was like shivering.. dad started laughing.. n asked me, '' nitemare ah'' i was like ... LIKE DUUUUH.. den wad happy happy scream at 3.03am?
yea i l00ked at my HP f0r the time.. den cldnt slp.. tt lump was hurting me.. haiz... den i t0t abt Prince & i slept.. weneva i tink abt him , i can slp sia.. l0lx.. if i tell him tis, he'll say, '' seruppaale adippe naaye".. he d0esnt mean it anyway..
den w0ke up.. t0ld m0mmy it was painful! and started t0 cry.. i cant tahan means, i'll cry.. cry means, jus tears r0lling d0wn my cheeks.. c0s g0t bl00d.. den aft washing up, i sat at the s0fa, watching Cart00n Netw0rk.. 2nd br0 came t0 hang his t0wel.. den asked me, u n0t c0ming ah.. rahima c0ming u n0e.. i was planning n0t t0 g0 anywhere c0s, its painful, n if i walk, i'll bleed m0re.. den wen he said rahima.. i was like.. ahhhh u nv tell meeeee! den quickly sh0wered den left t0 tekka.. there we sh0pped abit here n there.. ate.. sh0pped again.. den ate... den was walking back t0 the tekka market wen Prabz called..
t0ked t0 him.. c0mplained t0 him abt the pain.. tt stupid fella g0ing BBQ f0r 2 days.. grr.. rahima kept l00king at me wen i was t0king t0 him.. maybe c0s my face reacti0n wen like, im really c0mplaining t0 sm0ne.. lolx
den aft tt wen h0me.. den, washed bl00d 0ff.. den..watched tv.. den n0w bl0gging...
den rahima asked me abt tt benz... she cld c tt anger in mi.. l0lx.. den i was hearing the rec0rded clips 0f Prince t0king t0 me.. waaaaah.. t0uching t0uching.....
things t0 really c0nsider..
1. is Prince w0rth my m0ney? ( asked by Prabz, th0ugh he d0esnt like him, he cares f0r me! wee! )
2. why am i spending s0 much m0ney a mth? Max $60
3. is he truthful?
4. is he really my Prince?
5. d0es he l0ve me?
6. will he c0me back frm India?
7. main priority, Music or Me?
qn 1.. im n0t sure..
qn 2.. c0s im in l0ve wit him, & willing t0 d0 anything f0r him
qn 3.. he cant be quiet wen he lies t0 me.. 0n the very day, he'll say i was jus j0king wit u 0r wadeva.. m0st 0f the times hes truthful..
qn 4.. i realli h0pe his mine f0rever.. but u'll nv n0e wad G0d has f0r u..
qn 5.. i n0e he l0ves me. if n0t why he sc0lds me if i nv call him f0r 2 days? 0r jus disappear like tt time f0r a week? he said he wen mad, n starting thinking i wen f0r an0ther guy.. sc0lds me f0r saying tt i'll call 0nce a mth.. he said, make sure u call me 0nce in 2 or 3 days.. why d0es he get pissed 0ff wen i said i dun hv m0ney t0 eat.. c0s im saving it up t0 buy a card n t0k t0 u... why d0es he cares if he d0esnt l0ve me.. s0 tt means he d0es rite.. 0ne wh0 has t0 urimai, rights, will dare t0 sc0ld u n advise u n make u change rite
qn 6.. he'll c0me back.. s0meday in December.. but his g0dsis t0ld him t0 c0me back in 0ct. den g0 back t0 India t0 tk his test den c0me back again... he said, he has 20% f0r tt decisi0n and 80% tt he'll stay there till Dec. c0s he say, its n0t cheap t0 g0 India t0 n fr0..... but im really sure tis time tt he'll back by 2008.
qn 7.. music or me? Musics.. duhh.. he t0ld me the very 1st day, we knew each 0ther.. tt his music is his 1st wife.. den me.. well, im n0t against it.. tts his dream.. why shld i c0me inbetween tt.. as l0ng as he n0es h0w t0 manage his time f0r me n his musics 0k edi..
he made think abt the future.. wen he n i are a married c0uple.. wad will we be d0ing..
tis is wad he said, but i had tis in heart l0ng time ag0...
He'll be wrking in s0me c0mpany as a techician 0r engineer.. i'll be wrking in s0me sch00l as a teacher.. we'll b0th leave the hse t0gether.. i'll drive... hehehe! i will!!! den.. he'll be back h0me earlier den me.. he might be preparing s0me dishes f0r dinner 0r wad.. den he'll get ready f0r his music tuiti0n, which he'll either teach music in 0ur hse 0r in the students' hse. den i'll c0me h0me r0ughly at 7pm, aft sch00l.. den sh0wer n eat.. den.. d0 s0me h0usewrk.. den watch tv & d0 s0me marking 0r wad.. den arnd 10pm, he'll c0me h0me.. den i'll serve him f00d.. (smtimes he w0nt c00k c0s n0 time, den i'll g0 buy 0n the way h0me).. den we sit d0wn, tell each 0ther abt h0w 0ur day wen n all.. den d0 s0me sex.. haha n0 la.. tt 0ne i dun0.. l0lx... den g0 t0 back.. den he said, if he g0t 0ff, he'll make me take mc.. den we 2 g0 0ut.. tekka 0r wadeva.. enj0y 0ur day.. den he said, s0me 0f the days, u've tuiti0n at h0me.. earn extra..
waaaaaah.. i'll be wrking as a teacher in a sch00l. n will be d0ing tuiti0ns at h0me.. he'll be wrking in s0me c0mpany n teaching music at h0me n 0utside.. waaaaaaahh
PLANNING SIAA... nice t0 hear.. but will it wrk? i dun0... i shall wait f0r it...
w0kay... feeling sleeeeeeeeepy... time is 12.27am.. tk care! i cant wait f0r m0nday!
♥ TrappedButterfly
