I n0e there are s0me 0ut there, wh0 d0esnt like my guy f0r s0me reas0ns. it can be c0s hes an indian national 0r maybe he l00ks like a 00ru.. i dun0...
i dun0 he was still a indian nati0nal until 2 days b4 he left India.. i have principles 0f my 0wn. 0ne 0f it is n0t t0 marry a 00ru.. but it turned 0ut tis way.. t00 late, i've l0st my heart t0 him..
nice 0f u guys t0 be there wen im d0wn 0r wadeva c0s 0f him. nice 0f u guys t0 hide ur feelings t0wards him frm me.. c0s u d0wan t0 make me sad 0r wadeva.. but wads the use 0f hiding? if im ur true fren u wldnt hv hidden.. u guys wld hv said everyting.
n0 p0int having 20 frens arnd u. wads impt is tt 0ne fren wh0'll be there till the end. i dun see u guys anywhere near my future. if u hid n lie t0 me n0w, i can expect wad u guys will d0 in future. And my sis-in-law, wh0m i treat her as my sister has hid her feelings for him cos of me? great.. i n0e u dun like him.. but why must u still be there wen im t0king abt him n all... arghh.. if u care abt me, tts a diff story.. i dun0 hw t0 say.....
i dun0 hw u guys can hide the hatred 0n him n still t0k t0 me like nth.. i can nv d0 tt..
best act0rs.. c0ngrats..
why do u all hv to hid n stuff jus to see me happy? will i really be happy t0 n0e tt u've hid tis n tt? with wad face, im g0nna bring him al0ng wen we g0 0ut..
was it my fault tt i l0ve a 00ru kaaran? did i n0e in the 1st place.. wen i 1st met him, he l00k like a sp0rean.. seri0usly.. u guys n0e tt.. but s00n i n0e tt he wasnt 0ne.. but by den i've given myself t0 him.. it was hard f0r me t0 leave him... th0ugh he t0ld me at the last m0ment, wen i 0redi n0e he was a 00ru... s0 i was l00king at him blan
kly wen he t0ld him tt... i've 0redi l0st my heart t0 him.. u guys n0e tt its very difficult f0r me t0 fall 0ut 0f l0ve wen i l0ve a pers0n al0t... haiz..u guys n0e, i cant fake myself.. 0ther den pretending t0 be happy.. u guys n0e tt i dun 0pen much abt my pr0bs.. jus c0s u guys hate him f0r wh0 he is, u guys n0e hw much i f0ught with him till i wanna leave him c0s MY FRENS D0ESNT LIKE HIM?
i t0ld Prince tt the frens u c0nsider as frens, dun like u. like expected, he was sh0ck.. den he asked if im living f0r frens 0r f0r myself.. frens c0me n g0 but 0nli 0ne will stay. decide 0n wh0s tt 0ne.. 0k u've a p0int there.. but frens are the 0ne wh0're there wen u're in need n d0wn n all.. den he said, frens dun hide things frm u. frens will always hv the freed0m t0 say wadeva they wan, be it gd things 0r bad. they'll be willing t0 help u in every way.. if they hid frm u, they're n0t c0nsidered ur frens.. they're same strangers wh0 are befriending u. i've nth against dem, but i'd like t0 say, im ashamed t0 call dem as frens.. i agree they were there f0r me t00.. but the things they t0k behind my back is t00 much.. i n0e wad they t0k, but i dun g0 ask dem why they t0k like tt..
haiz.. but i w0nder why u guys dun like him.. even Prabz.. 00ru kaaran s0? l00k at his character.. his heart.. the way he thinks.. n all.. why tink abt his nati0nallity n cl0se the case?
let me admit a truth.. i prefer 0lder guys. they n0e hw t0 tk care 0f their gal n all.. guys arnd my age, all they wan is t0 hv fun.. 0lder guys 0f 3 t0 5 yrs diff.. they n0e wad t0 d0.. but t00 bad.. mine became t00 0ld..
wad if hes 28? d0es he l00k like 0ne? he d0esnt. c0s 0f u ppl saying, '' huh.. 28 ah.. y s0 0ld? huh.. 00ru ah.. u n0 taste ah.. " u making me feel s0 bad n s0 small.. there were times wen i hated t0king t0 him.. c0s 0f my frens' thinkings t0wards him.
smtimes i really wish i didnt tell ANY0NE tt hes my guy.. smtimes i really wish i didnt g0 0n wit him..
all 0f u n0e tt im kinda stubb0rn. if i wan means i wan.. wen my rahima asked abt me being seri0us in him.. i t00k days t0 tink abt it.. i put all my frens w0rds b4 me & fail t0 realise tt i l0ved him n hes l0ved me.. jus c0s she asked me tt qn.. it made me w0nder.. if i made a right ch0ice in ch00sing tt guy 0r in telling her abt tt guy..
all i did was cry.. n0 0ne knew it except f0r Anand..
wads wr0ng in marrying a 00ru? didnt my m0m marry? didnt she gave birth t0 4 kids? isnt she happy n0w? isnt she enj0ying her life? has my dad st0pped l0ving her 0r the kids? its p0ssible isnt it..
i called up my sisters.. n i t0ld dem abt tis.. they asked me t0 f0ll0w my heart.. frens n sis in law 0r even they w0nt be wit me till death.. as a family yes.. but n0t always there.. the 0ne wh0 u truly l0ve will b there..
0ne asked me.. d0 u trust him.. d0 u believe tt he l0ves u.. d0 u tink he'll be there f0r u.. d0 u hv tt nambikkai.. my answers were yes yes yes..
den she said, then why b0ther abt ppl wh0 are bl0cking ur way? thr0w dem away if its necessary. like u said, frens c0me n g0.. they're n0t the 0nli few alive in tis w0rld..
s0 wad d0 i hv t0 d0 n0w? haiz... i jus wish.... haiz.... wh0s cares abt me anyway? if YOU really care.. why u hid frm me? why? i jus wanna n0e why! n why u hate my guy.. jus hate me t00.. c0s im g0nna be wit him till the end.. s0 hate me as well.. i cant be b0thered abt u. be it frens 0r sis in laws... all i care abt n0w is my guy n the appr0val 0f my parents.. i dun need any 0f ur permissi0n t0 l0ve.. my life, my rules, i c0ntr0l. if u still insist 0f hidding n lying, c0nsider me as death.. ask urself, hv i ever lied t0 u 0r hid anyting? 0ther den the difficulties in 0pening up.. i was s0 truth yet u guys... betrayed me? thanks al0t...
i had a best fren.. the 0ne i always complain, cry n laugh with... dun0 wad happen t0 him n0w.. bz wit wrk, studies n 0ther his commitments..
jus realise tt im n0b0dy with0ut u prabz.. if i g0 n c0mplain t0 my guy abt all tis, he get very upset, start w0rrying, it'll b his burden.. dun wish t0 see him upset... infact i dun wish t0 see any0ne arnd me upset.. i'll wipe ur tears if i've t0.. i'll slap u, if u've made a terrible mistake.. tts friendship.. being there wen during 0ne gd n bad time..
ha.. n0ne n0e wads friendship i guess....
