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   Thursday, March 1, 2007 | 6:59 PM |

If only I could describe into words the feeling I have inside.

As if Im under water and no matter how hard I kick my feet I just keep sinking deeper and deeper, until finely there is no more room for me to sink and Im stuck,

as if Im a prisoner in my own pain. And I float there, at the bottom of everything and everyone. And I watch as the world slowly picks at my heart and soul until I no longer float but fall, and no one is there to catch me.

And I scream, but nothing comes out, and I cry, but no one takes time to listen. So I fall. Thinking of the moments of pain the drove me sink so deep that I float and to float so far that I scream and cry and finely fall until I can fall no more it seems to simply be a reminder to get up and face the world.

But as I do that and as my soul and heart crumble beneath my feet and I use every ounce of courage to stay standing, head up high, then I realise no matter how hard I kick my feet I will always end up sinking back down, so deep into pain, there is no point in standing proud.

There is nothing to stand proud about, so I sink, then float then I fall and finally die for I can no longer hide and lick my wounds. My soul, my heart, my mind are all too scared

I fall and fall and fall


Hey! dun u ever dare to tink tt, why tis gal always having sad, depressing posts. i do have happy moments in life. but no matter hw much happiness i have, a small saddness will ruin every happiness i have. its like, no matter hw good u're, and if u did a single bad deed, u're considered BAD! its the same.

Everyone has saddness and happiness in life. But not everyone can open up their feelings. Share it with people. I'm one of them. Its very easy for me to be happy. Smile n joke around with everyone. But u'll nv noe if im faking my happiness, cause everytime u see me, i'll be happy. Reason why im like this, cause i was brought up like tis. its all abt my happiness. jus have to give a pityful look n i'll get wadeva i wan. but nobody asked me if im happy, or anyting wen wrong or anyting. since young, i've realise that if i smile, ppl arnd me will smile. so if i frown, they'll frown too rite? so, yea.. bottling up my feelings since den.

im able to open up to ppl who very close to me. even if u force me to say wadeva i feel, maybe i might not. i duno. theres very few ppl arnd me, tt i've opened up to. not even my family..

Well, thats me! but i've realise that, the more i grow up, the more i gotta speak up. Actually no problem in me talking to people, but if u ask me to the ppl wad i feel, i'll tink a zillion times. cause i simply cant do that!


"u can laugh wen its funny, but that doesnt mean u're happy"



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