Terrible day at tuition. Haiz..
Shes a primary 1 kid. I was already WARNED tat she’s hyper n gets restless easily.
Ok fine.. 1st few lessons were alrite. She was getting to noe me and I gave her A LOT of face. Den recently, she started being a nuisance. Teach her dowan to listen. Keep asking can drink water or not. So I asked her mom to stop giving her a drink during lesson.
Its 1h 30mins.. twice a week.
Today she went overboard. KNN!! I cannot control my patience. I somehow felt like telling her my rules again. So I did.
Told her to listen to me, so she can be clever n stuffs.
Main Problem: she CANT read!!!!!
Argh..
After telling my rules, I asked her, if she happen to do all those I said she cant, wad can I do to her. She said, “ scold me? beat me? Next door room got rottan can take and whack me…….” I didn’t noe whether to laugh or be serious.
Im the type who cant keep being angry for long.. within 5 mins anger will disappear.
Half way thru the lesson, I started to soften. Gave her face.
PATIENCE. Tts the best part in me. I’ll tahan. Wait for u get over my head and wen u try getting down from my head.. I’ll blow my top..
Was helping her do her compre, basket she cant read. I helping her, she drawing on her table.. humming songs. I trying my level best for her to understand n wads she doing?
Den I tot, tts it lah.. 4get it.. GET OUT OF THE HOUSE. But den, wen I stop talking, she’ll look at me wit the pitiful face. I love kids. Haiz. Wad to do.. I sat down again.. threw her homework on the floor, took out my maths wrksht which I prepare for her, slammed it on her table, asked her to do without any noise. She did. WRONGLY.
Den I started screaming at her. Explaining to her, for wad fuck I came to her hse. Why I forcing her to learn and read. Why im so strict. Why im doing tis to her. Why her parents spend so much on her. Why tis n tt.. took bloody 15 mins explaining. She soon started to cry. I swear I didn’t whack her.. I dun whack anyone.. especially kids. Come on 7 yrs old wad she noes. But she was rude. Being rude to a guru is unacceptable.
Best part : she said, “akka, im sorry” I hear the word akka, I was like.. melting.. damn la.. who asked my mom not to give birth to another gal!!!!!! argh.. I didn’t accept it.. I didn’t say a word. Cos I.. no heart la.. haiz.. den my tone went softer and started explaining the wrong ones she did.. to change my mood, I msged prabz.. n told him tt I screamed at the kid.. it helped. =)
Every lesson, I’ll give feedback to her parents. And this time, I told them wadeva happened in the room. Saying the truth instead of finding of frm the kid herself is better. I was expecting shocked and surprised faces of the parents.. but they were calm. They say gd gd shld be strict like tt.. I was damn relieved. Wen I left the hse, I cld hear her dad saying.. so rude, no manners n stuffs.
My blk was 2 blks away. I was in tense. No mood! angry!!! Lil bro opened the gate.. he was playing wit me n asking me to take the keys frm outside. Wah lau eh.. I oredi pissed.. den tis boi.. I had my patience.. waited till the gate was opened.. I grabbed my lil bro.. ran to my room.. threw him on my bed.. and started biting his cheeks..
2 reasons : anger wit tt kid and tis kid…
Tis kid is damn adorable... LOL
Tis kid in my hse, was laughing anyway..
My excitement of going Langkawi is gone cos of the earlier incident. Haiz…
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