Sunday, November 29, 2009 | 5:27 PM |
Boyy has left Singapore to get married.
yday i met him, he came to my hse to give the pattirikke. i actually wen out and waited for him under the blk.
den went to queensway, to get his new shoes.
den went to tekka to collect his wedding suit ( i chose for him ).
den, we bought 2 veg set meal, when to the private place in lavender and we ate, toked, laughed, and finally i cried, he teared.. haiz.. i noe he sayang me alot. my eyes were super red.
den, time came to go back, he had to go bro hse in seng kang to put his new shoes and suit.
while the bus drove off, i saw him wiping his eyes.. :(
i took bus to lavender MRT.. i had alot of tears in my eyes. :(
when Redhill station came, i rmbered the path where i used to take during my poly days. sometimes even skipping classes. go to his hse and lepak, clean his hse, take care of him. make breakfast, lunch..
quarrel here n there..
we actually behaved like husband and wife.
and now, it seems as if, we divorced. and he is marrying another woman.
wallau.
while tt tot was in my mind, he called. :)
i told him abt it, and he said, " what can i do ma... i cant do anything.. "(
i took out my book and started distracting myself.
at cck, he called me and checked on me. i noe he really loves me alot.
i really put him out of my mind, once im home. but he called me nw n den, to ask me stuffs and to remind me that, he still exists.
i smsed me arnd 10pm plus, asking him to tk care, once in lifetime moment. be happy while marrying and etc.
but before i slp, tts wen it attacked me. i cldnt control my tears. i was behaving like a mad woman.
i was burying my face in the pillow, till i cant breathe.
i banged my head against the wall. i was strangling my winnie the pooh.
i was calling out for Boyy.. and finally, he called.
i sounded really distressed. and he was forcing me to say wad happen. i told him not to go.
i asked him to stay. i told him, i cannot tk it. the pressure is coming to me now.
he sounded very sad.. told me to stop crying. he cant do anything and i've to be brave n strong. he said, he too feel like crying and everything, but if he does, it'll affect me. he is trying not to show his emotions, if he does, i'll be like, seeeeee u too have tt feelings.. and etc.
haiz.
i slpt at 6am. cry n cry till i had headaches and sored eyes. he called me at 6am to say, he is on the way to his bro's hse with Ibrahim driving, go fetch the family and go airport. he was scolding me for not slping. and told me to slp and will call wen hes abt to tk the flight.
i said ok and i slpt. haha. immediately.
he called at 8 smth am, and said, hes going off nw.. and asked me to tk care. he has given my number and account number to ibrahim, anything, ibrahim will call me, and will transfer money every week. haiz..
we were kinda quiet suddenly.. and he said, "ma, i'll cry soon.. i think i'll hang up and go.." i said ok, and told him to tk many pics of him n his wife and etc. he said ok.
den aft a while i got ready for tuition. den on the way, he called me again. haha.. he said, he got inside the plane.. and asked if i can hear the announcement.
told him to eat alot in the plane.. and ask for all types of juices and etc.
den he laughed n said, they onli providing tiger. i said, den drink la.. np.
he said, "ohh.. previously, wen i joked saying i want to drink, u scream at me.. nw can la.. why ah?"
i said, " cos u're not mine anymore."
he said, " wahh.. like tt edi la.. fineeeeeeeeeee laaaaaa.. i go n nv come back. "
i said, " so wad nw, threatening ur 1st wife is it?"
he said, " oops sorry 1st wife madam"
i said, " haha.. ok rmb ah, tk pic of ur wife.. i wanna see.. and bring back the wedding video.."
he said, " sure sure.. i tink i cannot tok edi.. i call u once i come back."
i said, " huh come back? to sg???????"
he said, " no my sweetest idiot, once i touch down in India"
i said, " ohhh.. ok.. have a safe journey! love u!"
he said, " (sadly") love u with all my heart and strength.. "
i said, " byeeeeeeee"
he said, " bye da."
at least, i sounded happy and ok wen hes leaving.. but i wasnt... haiz..
abdul bro, smsed me asking wad im doing n etc.
shila was smsing me too..
den boyy smsed.. " ma the flight is moving now :(
den i replied.. " why sad? tt u cant drive the plane? other ppl paavam la.. dun hv tt kind of cruel intentions can? its ok da.. i'll be fine. u dun worry abt me. its God's will. for our good. we'll be frens even if we cant be together as a couple. u take care of urself. "
den he replied.. " ma.. im crying.."
den i replied.. " u wan me to cry oso rite.. den cry.. go ahead and cry.."
and he nv replied...
guess the plane took off.. :(
haiz..
it was 9.21am. and he reached india at 2.10pm (sg time)
he called me to say, he reached.. and asked why cant call from his sg line.. edi activated. so checked and etc. den he called back to ask and, i called starhub again to ask another qn.. den till nw, im waiting for him to call me.. nw its 5.21pm.
guess he cldnt find a payphone to call or he edi took a bus to his village.
4 days ago, he told someone in his village to get a prepaid card for him.. and he edi passed me the number. told me to miss call him n he'll call me back. promised him tt i wont buy any call back cards to tok to him..
haiz....
i was super happy to hear his voice...
nw currently, i dun miss him yet. im feeling normal. but if i tink abt the times we spent together, theres a sharp pain in my heart, and tears start to gather in my eyes. or if i look at any pictures we took together, the same thing happens.
im trying to get myself distracted. like preparing for term 1, watching tv, playing with aziz, etc.
haiz.. he said, he'll call me everyday, and theres no chances of me missing him..
actually ah, its good tt he said, i cannot buy cards to call him. if he calls.. it shows tt he thinks abt me. hehe.. but cannot la.. i cannot think tt way la..
aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
the whole world noes that i love him dearly.
the end.
♥ TrappedButterfly
