28th March… the last day in PAP.. I was super sad.. I’ve been in this class for 1 mth 0NLY. But im so bonded with dem..
Im really gonna miss the 4 yr olds. Haiz…
The perm teacher came into my class. She’ll be seeing hws the class gonna be and learn more FROM ME.
Shes 19 and im 20. Great.
Den she has certs. Teaching certs while I didn’t.
During the play time, I told her, “ u shld join in. interact and play wit dem. “ she said ok. Half the class were at the kitchen corner and the rest playing blocks.. I was at the blocks. Playing with the kids. Den she started toking to those in the kitchen corner. And Samantha ( see pics in previous post ) she like keep toking to this new teacher, Shariffa.
I felt really jealous. Like someone is taking away these kids frm me.. if I wrk, I’ll put my heart n soul in it. And wen im separated, I’ll feel super lost n hurt. Haha. weird? I duno.
Haiz.. b4 their 3 hrs ends, I gave the kids some present. A cute water bottle with their names printed and hello panda biscuits. Duno why, suddenly Yin Kai hugged me. and all started hugging me.. =(
The best compliment I got frm a parent was, “ why are u jus relief teacher? Why dun u be a permanent teacher.. u’re gd.. u’re very nice to the kids. “ * smiles big big *
Tts like 2 weeks into the field.
Den during the dismissal time, Mrs Yeo, the princi, she told the parents tt its my last day, and another new teacher is taking over n she got intro-ed and all.. den the parents said, “ huh new teacher ah.. den wad happen to her (me) “ den princi said, shes jus a relief. Wen the perm is not here, she’ll tk over.
Heart pain sia.. wanted to cry.. haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!! Wad to do.. life has to carry on… =(
I love kids. A lot. Be it tiny, small or few years youngers.. haiz… told boy.. he was like laughing. He said, “ u’re jus a relief.. wad happens wen u became perm sia? “
Gundu fella..
| In the Hands of a Gifted Teacher |
In every school, to every student
there's a special teacher.
To every teacher, to every student
there's a special bond.
To every bond to every moment
There's a special time that we'll think
back and say to ourself's "That teacher
really cared!"
If you know that teacher cares
you're life will brighten up.
Cause now you know that
if you fall, that same special teacher
Will come and help you up.
Like wad one of the posters in the school, “ Every student is a blank piece of paper. Every passerby comes by, leaves a mark on it “
Im glad I’ve made some mark on the kids. They loved me instantly.. so attached to me sia.. haizzzzzzz! Every kid loves me.. especially babies..
Tt day, made Jamal Bro.. hes our family fren. He got married last yr and recently his wifey gave birth. We were there on his wedding, aft tt, he was bz and we were bz.. no contact n all.. but hes my god bro, he doesn’t fail to send me gd nite smses. =) most of the time I dun reply haha. fwd msges. So aft like 1 yr plus, my parents n aziz n I saw him in Mustafa Ctr. He was carrying his son. Tt was the 1st time we seeing tt baby. Baby is 4 mths. My dad carry, he didn’t like it. So he passed him to me.. n tt little guy was sooooooo haha.. cute sia, he immediately put his face on my shoulder like gonna slp. Haha.. den he looked into my face n smile n started rocking front n back. Happy happy u noe.
Den I give mom the boy.. mom carried den tt lil boy looked at me.. like, “ oi why u gimme to ur mom? “ den leaned forward towards me. wanted me to carry again. Haha.. even the father, my god bro, was shock. Nv seen b4. Tt was the 1st time. He got attached to me.. den wen we wanted to make a move, the boy started crying. Hahaha. Cute siiiiiiiiiaaaaaaa.. den I sayang him den left.
Lol
29th March..
Nth much.. was at home all the way.. no money to go. Boy was at wrk. Saturday oso wrking, poor fella. Den Zaki wanted me to follow her, but I cldnt.. seriously broke.. haiz.. wad to do.. hv to pay my school fees, books, transport and food all by myself.
One way, I’d be matured. An0ther way, its too much for me. I dun hv much to spend for myself. Lucky I’ve boy. We are both lucky to get each other. Will tell u ltr.
I seriously felt one kind rejecting Zaki’s offer to go out. Haiz.. situation was bad. Aiyo aiyooo!
30th March.. (today) (Sunday)
Boy promised me, tt he’ll call EVERYDAY and meet 0NCE A WEEK. Due to his wrk. 6 days. So onli 1 day free and he’ll meet me den. Sweet of him la.
So nw, its every Sunday tt I meet him. well k la.. np.
Actually I didn’t wan to bother him today. Though Im suppose to meet him as promised. Cos he wakes up at 5.30am everyday.. infact, I WAKE HIM UP AT 5.30PM ( bomb explosion doesn’t wake him up.. his fone will ring n ring, vibrate n vibrate. By the time he wakes up he’ll receive 30 to 40 missed calls and the time wld be 6.15am. I’ll lose my slp by den.. cos if hes late, he’ll be fired. I got him this job. I wanna him to do well.) and he ends around 5 to 7pm. By the time he comes home it’ll be 8 plus. Smtimes go bro hse n comes back at 11 plus. Den he has to wash his clothes n dry them. Eat n everything. By den, it’ll be 12 plus. He’d call me though hes tired n tok to me b4 slping. Poor thing la. So its like no rest.
So I told him no need to meet la.. u slp til 12pm. Den rest and all. Den he said, NO, I wanna meet u. I wan u to follow me to bugis buy some stuff. I said, no I cant, need to go aunt hse.. go urself. Den he said, no no, die die must follow. So I tot say yes now, den ltr say cannot. Cos if im there, he’ll go back late. Den his off day, wld be gone.
My intention was, meet him, eat, tk the $50 frm him (pay back Zaki) den ciao. In the end wad happen?
Meet him, eat, tk the $50 frm him, go into bugis village, buy pouch, bag, chain, shades, jeans, shirt. WAT THE HELL. 3 hrs shopping for him. haha. den in the middle, he called Hasir and asked to join us. Tt chilli sos ( my nick for him lol ) came, in striped shorts n tee. Damn cute. He came to buy shirt den he ciao.
I really dun understand wads happening between me n him.
He said, we’ve to be frens. No choice. My mom damn stubborn, I cant marry u.. blah blah blah. Ok fine. I scarified my love. I gave up my love to the gal whos waiting for him in India. The one his mom arranged without telling him. but I still keeping my hopes, not tt high but medium. Once he get his PR, and settled down in Singapore, he’ll ask his mom to come over. And then’s wen I come in. I’ll get close to his mom n try to brainwash her. ( IM GOOD IN THAT! ) so anyway, we’re supposed to be frens.
Aft the break off, we were trying to behave like frens. 1 week of cryings frm both sides n all. Den soon ok edi.. but if nv call n tok, will get scolded frm both sides haha. we’ve been meetin up oso. But there’ll be one or 2 frens wit us. But today was the 1st time, we both were alone. Onli the 2 of us. And this guy.. asked for my selection. He always does tt, frm day 1. If I like the colour and design, he’ll choose tt n buy. Tt thing hes buying will be for HIMSELF. There was once today, I said nt nice, n he said nice. In the end he didn’t buy cos I DIDN’T LIKE IT. Sweet la.
Twice, I said, this colour and pattern, and design not nice. And he told the shop keeper,” sorry bro, my GF dun like it. Can change this to another ……“ we suppose to frens. Best frens. Must keep it tt way rite? Cant a guy n gal who are frens go shopping? Den another incident was, we were playfully arguing abt the colour of the pouch. Brown seem damn cool den black. Den we were aruging n arguing till the shop keeper came. Den he immediately said, “ bro, she wan to break off with me..” den tt guy asked “ huh why??? “ boy said laughingly, “ok la bro, I tk brown, if not she will break off with me. ”
I was like, hello, we’ve been there and done that.
I didn’t ask anyting. I was jus enjoying tt special feeling hehehehe!~
And he was oso standing so close to me and pinched my cheeks.. and he stood so close to me in this position : I was looking to my left and near to my right cheeks was his face.. he almost wanted to kiss me. smth made him stop.. and he walked off the see the other bags.. I was like.. WOW.. I badly wanted tt one. Den while walking into the complicated rows of shops, he held my hands. Den let go.. I tot he 4gt n not in purpose held it. Aft awhile, he hold again. Wah.. wads wrong with him.. I jus let the butterflies fly… I was really damn happy. I bet all these wont happen if anyone is together with us. Den wen to eat at LJS. Den he bought food for me n himself, n felt me with coleslaw and fries.. we shared the same drink From day 1.. even aft we broke off, once b4 meeting zaki, we ate kfc at wdls, same thing, he bought onli one drink. I asked his permission if I cld drink and he said, u crazy ah.. drink la.. den another time wen we wen out with frens, he didn’t wan to drink my drink or share his.. he feels paiseh? He doesn’t wan others to noe tt he still hv feelings for me aft the break off? So den, at LJS, I asked him, are u ok? U’re behaving differently today. Den he stopped eating, held my hand with his 2 big rough hands and said, “ Ma, I really miss u ma.. I felt like kissing u, den I felt tt it was wrong.. haiz.. I wan u la.. but.. I duno la.. nw I feel like hugging u n crying and asking u to come back. But wadever I say or do, u’d agree but not my mom.. “ den suddenly he let go of my hands.. jus like tt…. HAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ..
Wads goingggggggg onnnnnnnnnn laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Haiz haiz haiz..
Help?!~
Oh ya.. suppose to tell why lucky rite..
Hes lucky to get me cos, im there for him to do everything. NO HES NOT USING ME.
(I gt brains and I noe if hes using me or not)
He was in India, while I was here.. I looked for him Job. I travel here n there to help him come back. I went to immigration, ALL ALONE, and get his job done. I even took care of him, while hes in India. My words were so encouraging to him, were all so positive. Den wen hes back here, he’d ask me call this person up n tok to perfect English n stuff. He noes English but still got tt heavy slang of Tamil. Argh. Nw better. Thx to meeeeeeeeeee.. haha.. he said, if I didn’t tok to u while I was in India, I’d be toking like hw Indians in India tok English and will 4get hw Singaporeans tok English. Till this date, im helping him in many ways. Frm getting a job to food. I’ve spent more den $1k for this fella. Nt cos I love him, cos, I cant bear to see someone I noe VERY WELL suffering. None of his Singaporean frens did any of those I DID.
And I keep asking him weneva he asked me to help him do a certain task, “ hey pig, wad will do if I broke off with u wen u were in India, or I didn’t come into ur life, u’re became my greatest enemy? “ he said, “ all these things I dreamt of, wld b my dreams.. nv be fulfilled. I’d stay in India n nv come back, though Singapore is my fav country… “ I smiled..
He always listens to me. ALWAYS. Hes the type who tks things negatively.. and I’ll brainwash him with positive thinking.. and always encourage him. to him, I noe wads best for him.. so wen I ask him call up ur damn bloody boss and ask him on which day u’ll get ur salary, he’ll do it instantly. Cos he noes tt im there as his back up.. his right hand. And if I ask him to call this tt person, he’ll always say, why must I do.. nee irrukkiye (u’re there for me wad) u noe hw to tok n get the things done..
In a way, he got super lazy. But helpin him gives me happiness.. he doesn’t mk use of me at all.. =)
Of cos, hes not fully dependant of me. he tinks for himself, and oso advices me most of the time. I love the way, he reports to me like a robot b4 he slps. Lol. “ ma, I came back edi, I showered, pray, wash clothes, eat, hang clothes, den rest, den nw calling u. “ LIKE I ASKED HIM TO REPORT TO ME. haha.. haiz..
Duno wheres this gonna end.. and hws it gonna end. haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
