I felt like thanking the peeps in wh0 are in my life currently. Dun0 why feeling abit sentimental. Haha! I dun0 if they’ll be reading this 0r n0t.. jus dedicating these sh0rt message and p0ems t0 dem.
( its n0t in 0rder =)
T0 B0yy..
U’ve been in my life f0r 1 yr and 9mths n0w. th0ugh we br0ke 0ff wen we were 1 yr and 6mths t0gether, it makes me feel as if im still t0gether with u n0w. we m0st 0f the times behave like bf and gf. But we tell 0thers tt we’re jus frens. Haha.. 0ur relati0nship is very special indeed. Seri0usly, I dun0 hw I’ll be wen u get married. N0w it d0esnt seem like nth, but I n0e tt I’ll be suffering. N0 matter hw much I try n0t t0 call u 0r sms f0r a day, I jus simply cant. Aiyah.. even u, aft wrk, straight away call me. b0red? Call me. gg s0mewhere? Call me b4 u reach ur destinati0n.. u shared with me all ur secrets and w0rries and happiness and even anger. U always vent ur anger 0n me. but I dun tk tt seri0usly. U even smsed me saying, “… n0 0ne understands me except u da, thanks ma” “ wadever I tell u, is jus fr0m my heart.. wadever I jus smsed u are frm my heart baby..”
Tell me like this, hw am I supp0se t0 separate fr0m u.. change my thinkings abt u.. except tt u’re g0ing t0 marry s0me0ne.. 0r even, tt u’re already a married man?
L00k at me! im in l0ve with a married man! This is called AFFAIR! I hate it wen it happens t0 s0me0ne, n0w its happening t0 me.. if it wr0ng tt I fall in l0ve with u and I cant leave u? I n0e tt n0t 0nli im having these t0ts.. I n0e u’re suffering inside. U said, “ im 0redi dead, wen I g0t t0 n0e tt I cant be with u as a husband ” “ im jus living f0r the sake 0f my m0m. I dun0 hw im g0nna treat my wife.. it w0nt be like u.. shes extremely quiet, inn0cent and n0t s0 g00d l00king and I n0e nth abt her.. I dun wish t0 either. But if its u… u’re jus the 0pp0site and many m0re. u’re n0isy. U’re l0ud. U’re 0pen. U’re n0t inn0cent. U’re cute. U’re sweet. U’re kind and caring. And u l0ve me. “
B0yy.. please dun hurt me by saying all these.. I cant aff0rd t0 hear anything like this. its nice t0 hear.. having s0me great feelings in my b0dy and heart.. but.. tell me all these IF u can be with me.. haiz..
This is f0r u.. ( its in tamil, th0se wh0 dun understand tamil.. I’ll tell the meaning in 0ther p0sts.. )
Manjal veyil nee, minnal oli nee,
unnai kandavarai kann kalangha nirkka vaikkum thee
aannae yennada? unmai sollada…
oru punnaghaiyil penniname kopa paddathennada?
devathai vaalvathu veedu illai koyil,
kadavulin kaal thadam paarkiraen
ondraai irendaai un azhagai paada
kan moodi oru oram naan saaikiraen
kanneeril aanandham naan kaankiraen
unnalae pala gnaabagham, en munnae vanthaaduthae,
oru nenjam thindaduthae
enghal manathai kollai adiththaai
indha thanthiramum manthiramum yengu sendru padiththaai?
vizhivasavil valai virithaai, unnai pallakinil thukki sella kaddalaikal vithiththaai
un viral pidiththidum varam ondu kidaikka..
uyirudan vaalkiraen naan adi…
en kaadhalum en aagumo..?…
un paathaththil mann aagumo…
In the end, I’ll still l0ve u and I’ll nv f0rget u even if im married with 100000 kids..
(100000?? 0MG! im n0t a machine but jus f0r the sake 0f saying. Haha)
Next 0n the list : Prabz
Just because you're grown up, doesn't mean you don't need someone to confide in. In fact, logic dictates that the opposite is true. Life becomes more complex and difficult as we get older. The people that we confide in as adults are very valuable. People come into our life disguised as angels, and sometimes angels come into our life disguised as people. It is possible to see God anywhere. All it takes are open eyes and ears and the willingness to see miracles. They are everywhere. God is only as available as we are.
You saw me crying when my heart was broken,
You saw how hard it is for me to take it,
you never left me alone when I needed someone,
You lend your shoulder for me to cry on,
You wiped my tears with your precious hanky'
you lent your ears for me to open up my pain,
You never stopped listening to all my worries
your advise and sympathy helped me move on,
you made me forget the pain that crushed my heart,
And now that I have finally moved on,
I want the world to know;
how lucky I am to have you,
Because, you were always there my friend.
We started being cl0se 0n my 17th bday. Its been 3 years n0w. I n0e u since I was 14.. but.. I guess tt d0esnt c0unt. But still I n0e u f0r 6 yrs!! The things we used t0 crap abt.. believing all the stupid, n0t l0gical, lame the0ries u used t0 tell me.. haha.. I still rmb 69.. haha!! Th0ugh im in l0ve with B0yy.. u were mine b4 tt.. u were always there. We jus cldnt get t0gether. N0w B0yy cant get t0gether with me.. guess I g0t n0 luck in l0ve life. N0w we’re frens.. u understand me in and 0ut.. u can sense if im sad even if im in an0ther c0untry. B0yy said, even if hes married t0 an0ther gal, I’d still tink abt u and t0k t0 u.. and I’ll nv leave u.. tt reminded me 0f u.. u t0ld me all these.. and u’re still hving tt pr0mise.. th0ugh u’re attached, u still t0k t0 me n0rmally.. u still tink 0f me n0w and den.. wenever I l00k at the m00n.. u’re face s0meh0w appear 0n the m00n. I used t0 cry tt u’re n0t near me… but s00n wen I made myself like B0yy s0 tt u’d carry 0n with life (and u g0t attached) sl0wly, ur face didn’t appear 0n the m00n.. but still, I’d always tink abt u.. haiz.. u’re different.. 0ur friendship started differently.. I really h0pe it wldnt end… Prabz.. thanks al0t da.. u’re 0ne gem tt im afraid t0 l0se.
Next wld be, Zakiyah..
Gal, with0ut u, I wldnt n0e hw is it like t0 hv a sister with u by ur side.. T0 me u’re an angel in disguise.Full 0f intuiti0n, intelligent, and wise.Always giving and helping thru g00d times and bad. U’re the best sis I’ve ever had. If I had 0ne wish, It wld surely be, T0 give u as much as u’ve given to me. Th0ugh I’ve put 0ur relati0nship thru cl0udy days, U’ve been my sunshine in s0 many ways. Thru trials and tests, right by me.. U st00d, And gave me ur hand wenever u cld. Thank u s0 much my sista, my fren
My gratitude f0r u has n0 end.
Rahima & Zakiyah ( Left t0 right )
Next, Rahima
She is my sister, not by blood
But rather by love
When i cry she wipes away the tears
When i hide she takes away my fears
Faithful and loyal she does remain
Protecting me from a world of despise
Listening to everyone of my cries
With arms wide open she nurtures me
and keeps away all that is wrong
She keeps me on track, never letting me stray
To my sugestions she will never say 'n0'
Thank you my sister for all that you have done
The love for my sister is all true
The next victim is.. Ai Li =)
A true friend will be there for you no matter what
s0me0ne will listen to you if you have a problem
s0me0ne will care for you
s0me0ne offer you gum but not cigarettes
s0me0ne helps you to walk away from a fight but not start a fight
s0me0ne will let you to cry on their shoulder
s0me0ne will never judge you
s0me0ne will have your back when you get in trouble
s0me0ne is hard to find
s0me0ne will be there to the end
I feel really close to you, as a friend.
I wonder if you'll be there till the end.
Although i met you 3 years ag0
I will always want you near.
Your there when i need a shoulder to lean onto
Through thick and thin your there, and thats just you.
Your a type a friend i can't let go
And it's THAT i want you to know.
=) I s0meh0w g0t b0nded with u.. and I D0 miss u in class. I miss crapping with u, miss laming arnd and laughing at everything… even if its n0t funny, we’d make it funny.. haha..
Glad tt u c0mf0rtably fit int0 ur class =) but.. haha.. miss u la idi0t.
Next culprit: Vicki
Vickiii!
She is someone who will be,
a confidant making it very easy to talk freely,
who will concentrate on
my problems offering advice to me.
She is someone i feel,
will want to share my great joy,
not take away the happiness i feel,
but will be very happy over my joy.
She will be compassionate,
when i have a great misfortune,
helping in whatever way to compensate
for all the hurt of my misfortune.
She in life maybe someone,
I may never find or have unless,
you are a true friend for someone,
and finding one is true happiness.
Next St0p : Eezah..
Glad t0 hv u as my fren. Th0ugh I dun0 u much.. but I n0e ur lil secrets! Hehe! And u n0e mine! Haha! th0ugh pers0nally, we aint cl0se, but wenever we’re t0gether with the gang, there’ll be always laughter. I cant st0p disturbing u.. NEITHER CAN U..
I n0e u cant resist me.. haha.. but dear.. im glad tt u’re a part 0f my life and mem0ries. Im grateful t0 Vicki wh0 intr0ed u t0 me.. =)
*is Guna dead?*
Haha!
Next Black Sheep : Shamutha..
I 0we this gal al0t sia.. she t00k care 0f me wen im sick. She preventing me frm fainting, she f0ll0wed me t0 see the d0cs and everything.. jus like an elder sis.. but den shes 1 yr y0unger den me.. haha..
Shes 0ne babe tt I cant resist.. l0ves laughing at the lamest stuff.. and shes attached! Weeeeee!
C0ngrats babe! Glad tt u listened t0 me * wish u and Karthik all the very best! I’ll always l0ve u.. *
*cos 0f u Karthik is calling me Naz baby.. haha.. l0ve the way he chants, “Naz baby Naz baby Naz baby Naz baby” l0l..
L0ve u and my machans!!!!!
This p0st lasted f0r 2 hrs sia.. haha.. and im being sentimental f0r n0 reas0n.. B0yy jus called.. and I cried.. and he was said, “ u cry finish edi u call me” I asked him why in midst 0f all the sniffs and s0bs..
He said, “ eh idi0t.. u n0e very well I cann0t tahan t0 see u cry rite.. u wan me t0 cry al0ng with u is it.. “
den I st0pped crying and I t0ld him abt everything I typed. He g0t damn sad wen I said abt him.. haishh..
believe it 0r n0t.. he cried wen I asked f0r break 0ff. t0 me, B0yy is a very str0ng fella wh0 can accept any types 0f bl0ws. But he cried. He kept saying n00.. d0wan.. pls.. I really l0ve u.. dun g0 away frm me.. and we spent 1 hr jus crying 0n the f0ne.. haishh.. and wen we met, I t0ked t0 him abt everything.. and I cried and t0ked at the same time.. and he 0s0 cried.. wen Vin0d, his best br0, t0ked t0 me abt this break 0ff, I happen t0 cry again.. and B0yy walked away and we saw him wiping his eyes.. haishh..
aiyah.. smtimes I hate G0d f0r d0ing this. but den, he n0es best.. we jus g0tta accept it..
wenever I g0t sad n t0k abt it, he’d be putting a fake brave fr0nt.. and wen he gets sad and t0ks abt it.. I’ll be putting the brave fr0nt.. we g0t each 0ther t0 c0mf0rt.. but den.. n0t till the end..
but he has pr0mised me.. tt he w0nt leave me at all even if hes married.. and I believe in him..
t0 Vickii, Eezah, Ai Li and Shamz and t0 the rest whom I nV menti0n..
its 3 yrs since we n0e each 0ther. Time flew s0 fast ah.. next sem, s0me gg attachment.. s0me still in sch00l.. but wadever it is, we’ll still meet during graduati0n.. but tt d0esnt mean, u guys shldnt keep in c0ntact wen u’re away.. 0f c0s theres msn t0 keep in t0uch.. but it wldnt be the same as we hang 0ut.. sit at the same t0gether.. g0ssip.. laugh.. eat t0gether.. wait f0r each 0ther all.. I feel s0 sad.. I feel as th0ugh im g0nna l0se u guys.. jus like my sec sch mates.. 0nce aft p0ly, all will g0 0n their 0wn way… t00 busy f0r p0ly frens.. bet u, I’ll cry if u guys leave me. f0r 3 bl00dy years, u all were my happiness.. my gd frens.. we studied t0gether, taught each 0ther.. competed in exams.. c0mf0rt each 0ther wen we’re d0wn 0r angry 0r anything.. laughed t0gether.. teased/bullied each 0ther..
all these g0nna hv its end? N0 way man!!! I’ll murder every0ne 0f u if u leave me aft p0ly.. I jus l0ve u guys.. an0ther half sem m0re f0r 0ur attachment 0r fyp… =(
