So n0w, its 0nce a week meet? Every Sunday?
I simply dun0 hw t0 write d0wn the feelings im having n0w.
M0nday t0 Saturday: w0rk, w0rk, w0rk, w0rk, w0rk & w0rk
Sunday is the 0nli day u rest, yet, u insist 0f meeting me. why? D0 u still l0ve me?
But wenever I put my stand, “ NO, rest at h0me. slp till n00n ”, u always 0verrule me.
U asked me, in tears, t0 be ur best fren. Im trying to..
If U’re wrking hard everyday & u get this day as an off day, wld u rather stay at h0me & rest 0r meet ur frens? He d0esnt wan t0 meet any0ne else except me.. why? D0es he still l0ves me?
Why did u have t0 refer me as ur gf t0 few sh0p 0wners wen YOU asked me t0 be ur fren? D0 u still l0ve me?
Why d0 u call me during ur 1hr break time, wen u’re supp0se t0 eat & rest & prepare f0r the l0ng day ahead? D0 u still l0ve me?
Why d0 u call me straight aft wrk & tell me wad happen at wrk & c0mplain & sh0w me ur anger which u had 0n ur c0lleagues? D0 u still l0ve me?
Even aft kn0wing im 0ut, (always aft tuiti0n), & u jus ended ur wrk, why d0 u waste ur m0ney and call me, and t0k t0 me till I reach h0me safely? D0 u still l0ve me?
Why wen im toking t0 u 0n the f0ne, & wen I said, “ wh0ahh.. tt guy is h0t!” u get jeal0us? D0 u still l0ve me?
Why d0 u b0ther whether I ate 0r slpt? D0 u still l0ve me?
why are u still t0king t0 me wen we hv 0redi br0ke 0ff? D0 u still l0ve me?
why d0 u cry wen u watch tamil l0ve m0vies and think abt me till early m0rning and l0se ur slp, den straight g0 t0 wrk? D0 u still l0ve me?
why did u all0w me wake u up f0r wrk every m0rning? D0 u still l0ve me?
why did u held my hand tt day? D0 u still l0ve me?
why did u tell me tt u g0t ur salary, and u’re g0nna d0 this n tt? D0 u still l0ve me?
why are u willingly t0 spend f0r me? D0 u still l0ve me?
I asked him, “ all u like this c0s, I helped u al0t and l0ved and cared f0r u al0t? “
He said, “ n0, c0s I feel like d0ing all these. U’re part 0f my life. I’ll tk care 0f u even if im ur bf 0r n0t, husband 0f an0ther 0r n0t.”
Well I didn’t ask all these qns. Jus 1 or 2, & he replied tt..
Haiz.. I see c0uples, I start t0 tear..
I really really really wan u back. But.. I dun0.. my life is jus s0 empty.. friendship l0ves are different frm this l0ve. True, I’ve been int0 few relati0nships.. but n0ne are like this 0ne.
T0 think tt im n0t HIS.. makes me cry..
Frankly speaking, I HAVEN GET 0VER THIS L0ST AND I’LL NEVER. Its either him 0r n0 0ne.
I n0e ppl will say, “ dun be stupid n stuffs.” But tt same ppl n0es tt im sturbb0rn.. if I wan means, I WANT. Im sure theres a reas0n where im still giving h0pes and h0lding 0n.. G0d is great.. if HE didn’t wan me and b0y t0 be t0gether, HE’D hv made me f0rget him. but why I still haven? Been 25days since break 0ff. we’re n0t meeting everyday, he’s 0ccupied with wrk and im 0ccupied with mine. We still think abt each 0ther. We still hv smthing f0r each 0ther.. WHY?
HE n0es why.. and I n0e why… let him get a PR. Let his m0m c0me t0 SG. Then is when, my j0b’s g0nna start.
